It’s classical, right? A new year, a new start etc etc. I have always been searching to become better, do better. But for the last years I have been pretty content. And content of being content. During the last six months however, this have started to change. I am not as content anymore. I feel…
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Merry Christmas
From all of us to all of you out there – Merry Christmas. A small film from our 2018!
2018’s learnings for 2019
As always when the year comes to an end, I start to summarize the learnings I have done. What have 2018 taught me and what should I do with them for 2019? Grey2018 verified that life is not back or white. Something I’ve known my entire grown-up life. But, what 2018 have taught me, is…
All you need
I say as the Beatles did: And one of the smartest friends in the world. Giving you a call, providing you with insights to all your issues on a late Saturday evening. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
When in Rome
After almost 15 years we did it. A only grown-up vacation. 4 days and 4 nights we were away from the children. Together with dear friends we went to Rome to celebrate love. As couples we’ve been together for 25 years. Our friends have been married for 15 and the Mr and I celebrated our…
A 102 year old saga ends
This morning the Mr called and informed me that his grandfather passed during the night. He has reached an impressive age of 102 years 3 moths and 7 days. For my husband he was very dear and have been for his entire life. We and the boys were never to be call him great granddad,…
These weekends
Ok, I get it. With out the weekdays there wouldn’t be any weekends. But gee how I LOVE ’em – weekends. Especially when they are like the one passed. The Mr was working both Saturday and Sunday (he was also away Friday night). But I don’t care – because… I have friends. Friday dinner at…
International me
I was in a board meeting yesterday. And when it was expressing my viewpoint I automatically turned into English! 😱 I can only interpret this as I am more used to these situations when working (which I do in English a majority of my time). Finally I am what I always wanted to be –…
Reflections won
I took my time and let Sam wake up and we went for a walk along the ocean. Some good time just the two of us talking about small and big things.
Waiting
I realize that my result driven persona also makes me loose out on relationships. Just like I explained in my last post, my inability to just listen naturally makes me loose possibilities to possibly deeper relationships where I just am. I am sitting at my patio drinking my coffee in the amazing October sun. Thinking…
Lost it
After asking sons to help out and they needed a millionth reminder the Mr and I lost it. Completely. And then the house and the dog got clean.
Integrity
I have, not even a month after the Swedish election, where I’ve been elected substitute to the city council, noticed that integrity will be so important in order to survive. Integrity is complex. To be able to keep it, knowledge is essential to say the least. And trust is your biggest enemy. But integrity is not…
Why mums rule
After I published my post of moving teens yesterday, I got a fast and wise comment. It gave me a rude awakening, reminding me of the fact that my feelings contra my children’s development is secondary. My mum informed me that the 400 km to Norrköping, is not, by far, as far away as the…
This kid thing
I can’t figure it out. This kid thing. One minute I really dislike their ways and I am off to nominate them to “Poo-brain-of-the-year-award” (which I’m convinced they win) and send them off to Gulag as first price. In the next, I want to tie them to my nightstand, to secure they always be near…
I have given up
Yes, I have given up on mankind. There is no discussion on sociala media or IRL that isn’t black or white. Where people can keep to the point at issue, instead of disparage their opponent. People are not able to able to see more that two dimensions (if even that). It is always tall or…
History repeats itself
I remember it as it was yesterday. The Mr and I was leaving the hospital with our firstborn for the first time. The midwife (or if it was a nurse) said: “Don’t forget, now you have a new boss.” At the time I got offended (of course), which I didn’t show (could have happen). I…
Chill mamasita – chill
I’ve come to realize that I’m one of those people, who are either on or off. I think it has to do by the fact that I’m extremely result driven. I clearly have a hard time understanding why to do it, if you don’t want to give it your everything (except physical activities). It’s not…
Development
I think I have mentioned it before, but I guess it is worth mentioning again. Kids! What a blessing it is that they grow up! I have enjoyed all the different stages of motherhood, not said that everyday have been a miracle, but I have found all ages to have their perks. But now! When…
Am I taking it the completely wrong way?
Today was a milestone in the Dock family. Sam, our man, got himself a summer job. For five/six weeks this he’ll be helping out in the kitchen in one of the town’s bigger hotels Riviera Strand. He been trying it out this weekend 7-11 am preparing breakfast and the lunch buffet and did a good…
Enjoy it while you can
The other day I was doing my tax returns, calculating some figures while Fabian was eating his dinner, thinking I was working. After a while he said: “Wow, mum! I though that the only thing you were doing at your job, was sitting in meetings and deciding things. But you are calculating stuff too.” It…
Are you one of them?
Apparently, I have become the talk of the town (it’s a small town so you don’t need to worry that hubris will catch me). When the analysis is done, we, me and my crew, come to the conclusion, it is because I’m me (surprise). Since people never tell me, to my face, what it’s with…
Is it me, or is it you?
When people don’t like you (or they do like you, but not your viewpoints and what you are saying, but today it’s very hard to differ the person from the matter, so usually they don’t like you. Period). Anyway, when this happens, I can see two reasons for it: It could be so that your…
The concept of time
I have a hard time to get my mind around this thing with time. In 10 minutes we are off for “high school” information session for this dude I can’t understand that I am a parent to a soon high school student 👨🎓 …
Far from the limit
My weekend – what did I do? Absolutely nothing! Icleaned the house (kitchen and living room, more correctly) Saturday. Not the spare room, which needs it desperately. I also washed both cars. But the laundry was not done. The husband was away for soccer and work, so my company was limited. But Sam joined me…
Why so hard?
When reading “stuff” on social media I get surprised (?)/sadden (?) about how many who dislike themselves and what they have/haven’t done. I don’t wonder why. That’s pretty obvious. But why is it hard for folks to like themselves? What happen in my life that made me think that I’m an awesome person, just like…
Lessons learnt
Almost a week has past with not only without my husband but also my children! What have I learnt? I do enjoy my husband’s company, he is quite a lot of fun Without my children I have oceans of time (I new that already, but still) Without children I don’t need to eat different dishes…
Just like that
Mr F broke his arm 1.5 hrs into the ski vacation in the Austrian alps. The Dock children and their skiing traditions… Never the less. The Mr and I discussed shortly if F should fly home by him self. And a couple of hours later they called. My loving parents. 80 years old, they come…
Slipping
Can you feel it? How its disappearing? How its slipping away right at your fingertips? We know that our children are only a loan. They are only “yours” for a tiny time. Ours are leaving, I have a hard time understanding this. That soon it is me and the Mr only. Again. Before that I…
Dislike
I dislike people who, late in the game, throws in information. Information that people who is on top of things already is aware of and maybe already used. And the only reason for throwing it in, is to show that he is “contributing” . The problem is that he is not. The only thing he…
Limits
Sometimes I notice how limiting others (especially grown-ups) are towards other people. It’s especially upsetting when they are it towards children (and naturally my own). Do not limit the brains of a youngster! Let them believe they can accomplish anything and everything. Hopefully, with my awareness, I’m not. On the other hand I know that…
Best start of 2018
This was probably the best start I could get, watching this documentary: I will definitely bring it with me 2018. Inwards rather than outwards. Brilliant documentary.
One of my paths to happiness
Ending the year with some reflections. I often don’t recognize myself in others. One thing that was brought to my attention the other day was my ability to take and be content with my decisions. I believe that my ability to master the balance between sense and sensibility, is one of the reasons to why…
Mum & Son time
Today our youngest and I went to the mall. Fabian fabulous HAD to spend some of that Christmas gift money and a gift card from his birthday party. A good day with choices, purchases, more choices, returns and new purchases. We came home very satisfied (especially after mum got some help fixing the armband of…
Next step
For a good 1.5 to two years I have been living the “easy life”, meaning no new goals or challenges (yes, since I am one of those who just loves a good challenge…). I’ve been very content where I am and where my life is. I have had (and still have) a good assignment, good clients,…
Happy holidays
From all of us, to all of you a very merry Christmas! (Yes, I know there could have been more pics of me, but now there’re not, just live with it. I’m not sad so there is no need for you to be 😉😘).
When you find out
Sometimes you find out things about people around you that you just didn’t expect. And you get both angry, upset and disappointed. What to do? When it’s your kid, just keep on struggling. Independent how hurt you are. You thought you had done a good job…
Challenge
I’m not much for challenges. This means that I’m not actively seeking and finding challenges. You would never hear me say “Oh, I LOVE a good challenge” God no. I’m more the type of person who take it, even so reluctantly, when I need. Like today, to get a fairly unknown horse from its pasture,…
Date night
It’s happening again. Between soccer practice and games we find the time, slowly but surely, for date nights. Off to the movies. Just me and him. We thank a friend for bringing your youngest home from his soccer practice.
Flawless or not
To be a teenage parent is hard. Harder than I ever expected. I would be a huge fan of any software you could run in their brains so they are ready by default. My current task is to support in the things, the things I thought I made clear long before (and so many times…
Fabolous, just fabolous
I just returned from a 30 hrs loud (in opposite to silent) retreat with, yes you guessed it, my fabulous friends (yes, I have only have fabulous ones). This time it was time to meet my former colleagues. Strong, bright, fabulous women. With no more fucks to give to the patriarchy, incompetence and with so…
A good one
Although life try to run me down with a cold, I didn’t give up this weekend and instead I: Collected gratitude when the whole family were gathered to Friday dinner. Cooking and setting the table together. Only some minutes, but still. Had time for both board game and playing cards Saturday and good conversations during…
Long time no see
I know I have been awful at posting. Why? you might ask. I think I just needed to stop thinking and having viewpoints. BUT we have been been to the wonderful island of Lanzarote for a weeks vacation. I’m such as priviliged person.
Thanks
I don’t like birthdays, I LOVE them. I love the attention (I know you shouldn’t, but as I am the one I am, I won’t pretend). Therefore I appreciate all the birthday wishes on social media, phone calls, voice messages, texts and IRL. And to all of you I say:
Shared happiness
I won’t go as far as claiming that only shared happiness is real. But when you see someone else happy, it is a gooood feeling. To see the Mr in his right element, teaching soccer, I really get happy.
Happiness is a question
Happiness comes in different forms. Like a question from a boy. A boy, tall like a man but still a boy. A question that shows he’s thinking about his future and that he wants something.
Joke or not
Hmmm, I got puzzled yesterday about a comment I was given in social media. No doubt the comment was meant as a joke, but I instantly felt uncomfortable when reading it. It was not until now, 12 hours later, I could come to the conclusion of why I didn’t appreciated “the joke”. The joke took…
Louise Dock 