Banks and bulls, why I don’t like to become old

I don’t have a problem with getting old physically… now that’s a lie! I hate that too, but do my best to “stop Olle at the gate”*. But one thing I do see deteriorating already now, is my ability to keep up with things mentally. The Mr and I just changed banks to get a…

Next step

I’m at a point in my life, where I feel its necessary for me to explore. Explore my current situation and my future. When I hear the word searcher, the image that pops up in my mind is someone irresolute (usually a young female), who that ends up in a Hare Krishna community with a…

A good day

Today is a good day. Today as well. And it’s not even over. Started at the gym, with the 6 am club. Don’t you just hate it. I did. These people who exercise. IN THE MORNING! Dog walk, meeting with architect (we are planning an extension), some YinYoga and to top it off fika with…

One of those moments

Today I experienced total fulfillment. One of those moments when life is complete. A moment which, if you are aware, defines happiness. It’s these moments I strive for. Sam and I was talking while walking the dogs and I asked him what he wanted out of life. He answered me so wise, so adult. We…

How a mother knows

Two times in half a week, I’ve been able to tell there was something going on, just by looking at my boys (to other peoples defense, my children are the worst liars). But it’s nice to know that we are that connected and that they trust me to be honest once I ask.

Edit: Summarizing 2022

Was told that my proudest moment 2022 wasn’t the goal Fabian did. Apparently it’s not. Apparently it is that the Mr, as assistant coach took (with his coaching partners) his team to national final for boys born 2006. Yes, that’s something to be very proud of. And I would have been if they won. The…

Only five to go

Today is Fabian’s last day of the term/semester. Only five more to go then he too, is out of school. Can’t be reminded often enough how fast life goes. Yesterday was our annual Christmas cooking eve. For years we have forced the boys to be present in the traditional meatball making, now I think they…

Winter’s coming

This post I should have written a week ago. Now winter is here and according to the weather reports gone by Monday. It would have been great with a white Christmas. Today it was -18 C when Sam drove from work around 7 am. When walking Tesla (yes, with my studs) it was only -15…

That old!

For years I’ve been telling myself to get winter shoes with studs. Yes, that’s how old I am. When you’re living in a town built on the base of a ridge you need studs during the winter. Especially if you have this. I’ve been looking at one Swedish brand “Ice-bug“, but then I ran into…

No wonder people get stressed

I went to the my client’s office a while back. It doesn’t happen often. Thank God Covid19 taught us to work from a distance. One of the reasons I don’t visit the office is that the team I work with the most doesn’t sit there. Thereto it’s 1,5 hrs away (train or car) from my…

Have you ever heard?!

Looking around I see people that are so stressed. I must admit that I don’t see them that often anymore and this is probably a combo of 1) I don’t read (or interact) that much with others and 2) I and friends are in a different stage in life, were we simply have less things…

What do you do?

As I told you about a while back, the Mr has gotten himself a day job. Working shift is nothing but a memory. This means however, that we have a lot more time together. I’m “always” bragging about our relationship, which celebrates 30 years next summer. In hindsight, I’d say that one of the contributing…

Limitless

Lately I’ve been thinking a lot of limitlessness (? is that even a word? Well it is now). My previously post was for sure connected to it. Social media – a place where you can say what ever you want, no matter how foul, how hateful or how much it will hurt. Limitless. And I…

Is it time?

Some time back, I downloaded all my content from Facebook and Instagram and promised myself to stop posting (or at least limit my no. of posts) and so I did. For Facebook I only shared old content or content from others, nothing personal. On Instagram I went from posting almost daily (back in the days…

I’m not alone

Had lunch with a friend of mine. We talked about life and what’s happening and came to the conclusion we share an issue. We are both mother’s of two sons in similar age, not that I think that our offsprings’ gender has too much to about our common dilemma, which is – our ability to…

Freedom

I was asked by a high-school student to be interviewed about motivation. The first question was – what makes you motivated? And it got me thinking, what is it that get’s me motivated. I came to the conclusion that for me it is freedom. Freedom to have right do what I want. Naturally we can…

Season’s over

Today Fabian and his team played their last game for this season. A win. It’s been a tough and educational season as they played the top league. Now training continues as it does until Christmas comes. You gotta love football.

“Your mind had understood, but your heart hasn’t”

It was a colleague who said those words to me last week. I expressed my feelings of seeing my last boy being in his high for his independence. With Sam it was easier, maybe because of the fact that I still had another one coming. It was so I almost didn’t notice it. But now….

So much stupidity

Watching/listening to today’s morning news. And I’m flabbergasted of the amount of effort people are willing to give, to avoid to take responsibility. And how poorly equipped we are to remove these bad apples (I don’t mean we should execute them, just secure that they can’t hurt more people, getting rid of them in the…

Play date

So her best Ridgeback friend is down at her summer home and we were invited to come play. Great times!

New beginnings

This morning was epic. For our family. Or for my husband. After 22.5 years as an emergency response operator (20.5 at his current company) the Mr worked his last shift. A nightshift. During the kids whole life, they have been told to “keep it down” because dad’s sleeping. Had a mother who didn’t do much…

Old

Have I mentioned how old I’m getting? I know, that I over and over again mention that life is going too fast when things happen to the boys. But I never see the connection to me getting old. BUT what’s leading me on to understanding that I am getting old are all those things that…

Life reminding itself

You need them. Once in a while you need that inexorably punch in your stomach. A punch that shakes you to your core. A blow that makes an average Friday night important and reminds you that all your days are the most important you have. Because they are your life. I was aimlessly scrolling my…

Perspectives of time

I’m conscious about time. In the bigger perspective. To stop daily and reflect over things (usually my children and/or feelings connected to everyday activities). This gives me an awareness of now. A now that tomorrow is part of the past. It gives me knowledge that I was present while alive. I believe this will grant…

Time for someone else

The Mr and I caught up time with a “date night”. Football was on the agenda. The Mr is, as you are well aware of, assistant coach for Halmstad bollklubbs (HBK) boys aged 16 and have season tickets. We took the train (so strange, but good for us to skip the car) and then I…

Review Skiathos

It started with poor imagination. The Mr wanted to go abroad during his vacation. No discussion. I never have that need. Or possibly I never need to, as my husband always wins that race. I understand him though. Living in Sweden and having an early vacation in June – you never know what weather you’ll…

And the little one ❤️

Last day in junior high for this lad. I just can’t believe what time has done. I know I sound like a broken record but I just don’t. I’m so proud of both my boys.

What happened

Today Sam came home with his graduation cap. I can’t comprehend this. Our oldest is done with school. He’s officially a real adult and we don’t need to care for him. Naturally I teared up. I’m so not ready for this and I force myself to remind myself what his daycare teacher Helene told me,…

Will not!

Yesterday I heard Fabian coughing… again. He later complained about a soar throat. And then some more coughing. Last week the whole family was well after four weeks of cold from one to another and now we are back at it. I almost panicked when I heard the coughing. I will not WILL NOT be…

Free unsolicited advise

If you have a returning cost, say a burglar alarm, which possibly has risen in cost annually. Don’t be afraid to call the company and ask what they can do about it. Because they can. And they probably will. We now lowered our quarterly cost with 6 bottles of fine wine. I try not tho…

Good at

I’m very good at many things (almost everything), but there is one thing that I would say there is one thing I’m a liiiiiiiiitle better at than many of you (not that it’s a competition), and that is. to treat myself. To treat my self a going to the theater watching plays, music, musicals and…

Friday tulips

Almost every Friday I purchase a bouquet flowers, usually tulips. Nowadays it doesn’t only bright my day up, flowers makes you happy, but I also think of my friend Monika. She also likes tulips and always purchase white ones. I can’t limit myself I need have colours and different ones every time. Happy Friday all,…

Unbelievable

I will just say that what’s happening right now is unbelievable. Unbelievable and wrong. (I will ignore the fact that the site went down twice writing this).

Fantastic parents

Sam wasn’t selected to make the military service. Due to lactose intolerance… We were all kind of surprised about this, especially that it wasn’t sorted before the physical visit. We were thinking that he might get removed by his hearing, but he never came that far. But no sad faces on any of us. And…

Short feeback

The message to our little miss T seems to have worked. Last night she didn’t bother come into our bedroom. On the other hand her big brother did. So if anyone has a minute over, please inform him, that no dogs should be co-sleeping in our bed going forward. Thank you,

What if?

I just went back to sleep? Like right now. My thick, not sore, throat woke me up 1.5 hrs ago. Been doing all sorts of things except sleeping. Now I will give it a go. Wish me luck.

Them – again

I don’t know if it’s because I’m a nostalgic sucker, because I’m getting old, because my family is my universe, because I am me or a combination of all above. But them kids. Gee, what is happening and I can I cope? This is nothing you think about getting pregnant or after delivering your baby….

A good week

Yes, the week has been extremely good, I guess it started already last Friday. Sam had his theoretical exam for his driver’s license. You must pass the theoretical one before the practical exam can done and the license is officially yours. Last time, for his moped license, he had some issues. Absolutely not for being…

Have faith

Yesterday there was a party for our young adult. 15 friends showed up (they were invited). Young adults, mainly of the male gender. What a great bunch! When the party was over the last ones standing both initiated and handed the cleaning – the house was almost in a better shape after than when they…

Sam our man ❤️

He had us waiting. Not for long, but we first had some else cooking for May 2003, but “thankfully” that unborn was lost. But then he came. He was planned for 2 January 2004, but thanks to being a breech baby, we got a planned c-section and then – to meet my wish of not…

Friends

Today we had a play date with one of my high school friends and family. With we I mean the dogs. Buddy haven’t had so many play dates due to his parents. I’m devastated over this fact, when I see how good he is. Buddy, Tesla and Sansa had a great time – and so…

Time

As the year is coming to an end, some reflections are in order. Last year I promised to blog more. So, so I did. I managed to have at least one post each month. There is room for improvement. But 2021 as a whole was an huge improvement compared to 2020. Sam will be 18…

Christmas thankfulness

Silent night or morning in my case. As you know my favourite. Also on Christmas morning. The Mr just came home from working the nightshift, sleeping some hours to later get on a new one. I’ll let the boys sleep a little longer to later force them have breakfast with their mother and joining me…

What life should feel like

Got this memory on Facebook today (yes, I know, I shouldn’t be there, or, I don’t want to be there, but I am, not especially often, but as you see I am). It’s from today 2011. I’d caption the picture: ”What life should feel like”. I’m so wise. Because that’s so true. The week that…

Alea iacta est

It’s truly uncomfortable when you start doubting yourself and your perception of things. Am I overthinking, am I delusional, when you start wonder who you can trust. That’s scary shit. But now it’s done.

What’s a job really?

This week I have once again see that how people’s views on things can be really different. Which of course is ok. I guess what is important is that we all respect that our own view doesn’t fit all. Wether its age and wisdom or just something else that made me realize that a job…

I’m one of them

Not in, say… a million years. I thought I’d be one. One of them. I actually used to loath them somewhat. Those people. The people who are done with their exercise before 7.00 am . But now I am. One of those who are standing “ready to go” (here I’m slightly exaggerating) at 5.50 am….

4.5 weeks

Meaning that in 3.5 weeks she will be home and then crazy will live here for a while. We were asked to pick two, the breeder will then decide. Mine and Fabian’s favourite was light blue. While Sam’s was yellow. The Mr loved them all.

Not much

Currently not much is happening. Summer has arrived in our part of Sweden and the weather has been nice. Maybe a little too windy and slightly colder the last days, but hey it’s not raining. Sam’s school has ended and Fabian is out on Tuesday. I’m waiting for vacation. The Mr is caring for our…