Play date

So her best Ridgeback friend is down at her summer home and we were invited to come play. Great times!

New beginnings

This morning was epic. For our family. Or for my husband. After 22.5 years as an emergency response operator (20.5 at his current company) the Mr worked his last shift. A nightshift. During the kids whole life, they have been told to “keep it down” because dad’s sleeping. Had a mother who didn’t do much…

Old

Have I mentioned how old I’m getting? I know, that I over and over again mention that life is going too fast when things happen to the boys. But I never see the connection to me getting old. BUT what’s leading me on to understanding that I am getting old are all those things that…

Life reminding itself

You need them. Once in a while you need that inexorably punch in your stomach. A punch that shakes you to your core. A blow that makes an average Friday night important and reminds you that all your days are the most important you have. Because they are your life. I was aimlessly scrolling my…

Perspectives of time

I’m conscious about time. In the bigger perspective. To stop daily and reflect over things (usually my children and/or feelings connected to everyday activities). This gives me an awareness of now. A now that tomorrow is part of the past. It gives me knowledge that I was present while alive. I believe this will grant…

Time for someone else

The Mr and I caught up time with a “date night”. Football was on the agenda. The Mr is, as you are well aware of, assistant coach for Halmstad bollklubbs (HBK) boys aged 16 and have season tickets. We took the train (so strange, but good for us to skip the car) and then I…

Review Skiathos

It started with poor imagination. The Mr wanted to go abroad during his vacation. No discussion. I never have that need. Or possibly I never need to, as my husband always wins that race. I understand him though. Living in Sweden and having an early vacation in June – you never know what weather you’ll…

And the little one ❤️

Last day in junior high for this lad. I just can’t believe what time has done. I know I sound like a broken record but I just don’t. I’m so proud of both my boys.

What happened

Today Sam came home with his graduation cap. I can’t comprehend this. Our oldest is done with school. He’s officially a real adult and we don’t need to care for him. Naturally I teared up. I’m so not ready for this and I force myself to remind myself what his daycare teacher Helene told me,…

Will not!

Yesterday I heard Fabian coughing… again. He later complained about a soar throat. And then some more coughing. Last week the whole family was well after four weeks of cold from one to another and now we are back at it. I almost panicked when I heard the coughing. I will not WILL NOT be…

Free unsolicited advise

If you have a returning cost, say a burglar alarm, which possibly has risen in cost annually. Don’t be afraid to call the company and ask what they can do about it. Because they can. And they probably will. We now lowered our quarterly cost with 6 bottles of fine wine. I try not tho…

Good at

I’m very good at many things (almost everything), but there is one thing that I would say there is one thing I’m a liiiiiiiiitle better at than many of you (not that it’s a competition), and that is. to treat myself. To treat my self a going to the theater watching plays, music, musicals and…

Friday tulips

Almost every Friday I purchase a bouquet flowers, usually tulips. Nowadays it doesn’t only bright my day up, flowers makes you happy, but I also think of my friend Monika. She also likes tulips and always purchase white ones. I can’t limit myself I need have colours and different ones every time. Happy Friday all,…

Unbelievable

I will just say that what’s happening right now is unbelievable. Unbelievable and wrong. (I will ignore the fact that the site went down twice writing this).

Fantastic parents

Sam wasn’t selected to make the military service. Due to lactose intolerance… We were all kind of surprised about this, especially that it wasn’t sorted before the physical visit. We were thinking that he might get removed by his hearing, but he never came that far. But no sad faces on any of us. And…

Short feeback

The message to our little miss T seems to have worked. Last night she didn’t bother come into our bedroom. On the other hand her big brother did. So if anyone has a minute over, please inform him, that no dogs should be co-sleeping in our bed going forward. Thank you,

What if?

I just went back to sleep? Like right now. My thick, not sore, throat woke me up 1.5 hrs ago. Been doing all sorts of things except sleeping. Now I will give it a go. Wish me luck.

Them – again

I don’t know if it’s because I’m a nostalgic sucker, because I’m getting old, because my family is my universe, because I am me or a combination of all above. But them kids. Gee, what is happening and I can I cope? This is nothing you think about getting pregnant or after delivering your baby….

A good week

Yes, the week has been extremely good, I guess it started already last Friday. Sam had his theoretical exam for his driver’s license. You must pass the theoretical one before the practical exam can done and the license is officially yours. Last time, for his moped license, he had some issues. Absolutely not for being…

Have faith

Yesterday there was a party for our young adult. 15 friends showed up (they were invited). Young adults, mainly of the male gender. What a great bunch! When the party was over the last ones standing both initiated and handed the cleaning – the house was almost in a better shape after than when they…

Sam our man ❤️

He had us waiting. Not for long, but we first had some else cooking for May 2003, but “thankfully” that unborn was lost. But then he came. He was planned for 2 January 2004, but thanks to being a breech baby, we got a planned c-section and then – to meet my wish of not…

Friends

Today we had a play date with one of my high school friends and family. With we I mean the dogs. Buddy haven’t had so many play dates due to his parents. I’m devastated over this fact, when I see how good he is. Buddy, Tesla and Sansa had a great time – and so…

Time

As the year is coming to an end, some reflections are in order. Last year I promised to blog more. So, so I did. I managed to have at least one post each month. There is room for improvement. But 2021 as a whole was an huge improvement compared to 2020. Sam will be 18…

Christmas thankfulness

Silent night or morning in my case. As you know my favourite. Also on Christmas morning. The Mr just came home from working the nightshift, sleeping some hours to later get on a new one. I’ll let the boys sleep a little longer to later force them have breakfast with their mother and joining me…

What life should feel like

Got this memory on Facebook today (yes, I know, I shouldn’t be there, or, I don’t want to be there, but I am, not especially often, but as you see I am). It’s from today 2011. I’d caption the picture: ”What life should feel like”. I’m so wise. Because that’s so true. The week that…

Alea iacta est

It’s truly uncomfortable when you start doubting yourself and your perception of things. Am I overthinking, am I delusional, when you start wonder who you can trust. That’s scary shit. But now it’s done.

What’s a job really?

This week I have once again see that how people’s views on things can be really different. Which of course is ok. I guess what is important is that we all respect that our own view doesn’t fit all. Wether its age and wisdom or just something else that made me realize that a job…

I’m one of them

Not in, say… a million years. I thought I’d be one. One of them. I actually used to loath them somewhat. Those people. The people who are done with their exercise before 7.00 am . But now I am. One of those who are standing “ready to go” (here I’m slightly exaggerating) at 5.50 am….

4.5 weeks

Meaning that in 3.5 weeks she will be home and then crazy will live here for a while. We were asked to pick two, the breeder will then decide. Mine and Fabian’s favourite was light blue. While Sam’s was yellow. The Mr loved them all.

Not much

Currently not much is happening. Summer has arrived in our part of Sweden and the weather has been nice. Maybe a little too windy and slightly colder the last days, but hey it’s not raining. Sam’s school has ended and Fabian is out on Tuesday. I’m waiting for vacation. The Mr is caring for our…

Doers and don’ters

I have a look in my mailbox and get reminded of how many who are none action people. I’m the kind of person who when I hear you say you want to do something and we commit to it, I actually think you will do it. And now I remembered one thing where I too,…

What’s happines May 2021

Easy, a vintage (TM) display cabinet. We (read I) have searched for five years after the perfect cabinet to place here. Got it. Full credit for helping us out (making it happen at all) to Malmnäs Möbler & Interiör, who found it and delivered it.

What’s a life?

I found a draft from 2019 with this heading “What’s a life”. Today I’d say it is what I have right now. Breakfast outside, sun shining (I had to block it with a parasol), training done and no plans what so ever. My life right now makes me extremely thankful. I take a minute to…

This influencer thing

Maybe it’s just me getting old. Really, really old. But these influencers, what is their raison d’être? Not only are there SO many of them. And all they do is making duck faces, selling clothes and make-up with sexy ass pictures. Is there anyone keeping track of them? The competition must be so firece. Where…

Finally

The Swedish authorities have finally lifted the restriction for kids to not play matches! It’s been a long, exhausting and boring start of the season. Finally Fabbe’s football games can start again! First game on Sunday – hurray!

What would happen?

If we just one day said no. I will not do that? Or just stoped doing things? Stoped taking the freaking responsibility for everything. All the things that just happens to fall in your lap because no-one else is doing it. I’m talking about buying birthday gifts for EVERYONE, securing that the kids have clothes…

Hungry for more

Yes, sometime us happy people are very VERY provocative. Like yesterday, when I woke up at 05.30 when the Mr’s alarm went off (I mean, someone’s gotta work) and didn’t even get upset about it. Instead I felt grateful. Instead of moping I took the opportunity to improve myself. I listened to a pod, read…

Gentle reminder

In a few days, it is once again International Women’s Day. With that said I want to remind you of what I wrote last year, after seeing too much of expressions of men’s gratitude and love for women in social media, much inline of the same spirit as Mother’s Day or Valentine’s Day. For me…

Jackpot

This weekend was a full jackpot in “adult points” – freely translated from Wikipedia “Adult points is a humous concept about personal characteristics and actions that characterize life as an adult.“ Naturally, being close to the 50, I and the Mr are more than adults, even if we still want to question that fact once…

The delusion of control

A couple of years back I had an assignment at a customer who was in the process of implementing “a self managing organisation”. I don’t know if this post has anything to do with the fact that the company was exploring self management and going through a transformation, but one epiphany during this time was…

A gentle reminder

I am a person with a stable self worth and confidence. This is good. When it turns to hubris, not so much, this post is before I get hubris. As mentioned I have started to go through my saved images. As I shoot in .raw and the files are huge and not possible to share…

Winter outside, spring inside

I forced the boys out with me and the dog today. They were pretty fine with it, they usually are. On the other hand we do not force them to anything especially often these days. We have had quite some snow today, now I’m guessing it’s turning into rain and disappear again. Here on the…

Sit down in the boat

Sometimes the only thing one needs to do, is nothing and things will just solve themselves. Yesterday I had my first day back in (home) office. Wednesday I spent in bed. With a sore throat and generally feeling blah. While doing so, Christmas danced out as we spoke about the other day. Apparently my tinsel…

2018’s learnings for 2019

As always when the year comes to an end, I start to summarize the learnings I have done. What have 2018 taught me and what should I do with them for 2019? Grey2018 verified that life is not back or white. Something I’ve known my entire grown-up life. But, what 2018 have taught me, is…

A 102 year old saga ends

This morning the Mr called and informed me that his grandfather passed during the night. He has reached an impressive age of 102 years 3 moths and 7 days. For my husband he was very dear and have been for his entire life. We and the boys were never to be call him great granddad,…

My boys

Just as bottomless my frustration can be, just as never ending is my love for these two. Yesterday Fabian did his premiere in his big bros soccer team. they were short of people. You can see his pride as he enters the pitch in the image below. My two boys, so proud.

Emotional

Today it was time for our first born to get his confirmation. I would say he have had a better year than expected. Getting to know new people, seeing Berlin and learning about values. It was far more emotional than I expected. Seeing my mother in law tearing up didn’t help. Thanks to everyone coming…

Slipping

Can you feel it? How its disappearing? How its slipping away right at your fingertips? We know that our children are only a loan. They are only “yours” for a tiny time. Ours are leaving, I have a hard time understanding this. That soon it is me and the Mr only. Again. Before that I…

Dislike

I dislike people who, late in the game, throws in information. Information that people who is on top of things already is aware of and maybe already used. And the only reason for throwing it in, is to show that he is “contributing” . The problem is that he is not. The only thing he…