Who gives a sh..

I’m not saying things are not important. But still I’m amazed how so many people can gather and create movement around “unimportant” job related things or making total useless content for social media (like this post), while we at the same time are not able to make changes that are really important for our survival.

Banks and bulls, why I don’t like to become old

I don’t have a problem with getting old physically… now that’s a lie! I hate that too, but do my best to “stop Olle at the gate”*. But one thing I do see deteriorating already now, is my ability to keep up with things mentally. The Mr and I just changed banks to get a…

What I love

One thing that I love is my me time. I have understood that I don’t need it as much as I used to, during the weeks. But i love the fact that the Mr is involved in academy football at a elite football club. That demands him to be away a lot during the season….

Next step

I’m at a point in my life, where I feel its necessary for me to explore. Explore my current situation and my future. When I hear the word searcher, the image that pops up in my mind is someone irresolute (usually a young female), who that ends up in a Hare Krishna community with a…

A good day

Today is a good day. Today as well. And it’s not even over. Started at the gym, with the 6 am club. Don’t you just hate it. I did. These people who exercise. IN THE MORNING! Dog walk, meeting with architect (we are planning an extension), some YinYoga and to top it off fika with…

One of those moments

Today I experienced total fulfillment. One of those moments when life is complete. A moment which, if you are aware, defines happiness. It’s these moments I strive for. Sam and I was talking while walking the dogs and I asked him what he wanted out of life. He answered me so wise, so adult. We…

To be needed

The biggest sorrow for us as a parents, is when we have succeeded in creating independent people of our children. When they were two and you couldn’t move a step before they cried to be with you/on you, maybe happiness wasn’t always the prominent feeling. But now when they are nineteen, I love the fact…

How a mother knows

Two times in half a week, I’ve been able to tell there was something going on, just by looking at my boys (to other peoples defense, my children are the worst liars). But it’s nice to know that we are that connected and that they trust me to be honest once I ask.

Edit: Summarizing 2022

Was told that my proudest moment 2022 wasn’t the goal Fabian did. Apparently it’s not. Apparently it is that the Mr, as assistant coach took (with his coaching partners) his team to national final for boys born 2006. Yes, that’s something to be very proud of. And I would have been if they won. The…

Why?

I’m a one woman company. I am my company. I am my brand. There are many of us out there. What I can’t understand is why you are not open with it. I react to is when one-person companies use plural personal pronouns, as “we” and “us” when talking about themselves. Why? Another thing I…

Summarizing 2022

This is so fun, why haven’t I done this every year? Best: Fabian’s and my trip to Paris, Sam getting his driver’s license and his job.Nicest (and surprisingly so): The 6 am sessions at the gymMost unexpected: Dad talking football at Christmas, showing he had watched (at least) one game during the world championship and was…

Just a reminder

Now when people post their most sparkling family portraits on social media. Remember this. It could be a true reflection of a truly blissful life or it’s a more or less staged moment seconds from chaos.

From us all to you all

So it’s here, Christmas. Yesterday was spent with my parents just because we want to be home and safe on Christmas Eve and not stressing, something we deciderat long before we had children. I wish all a safe and good Christmas and for 2023 I hope for more common sense with everyone everywhere. We’re now…

Only five to go

Today is Fabian’s last day of the term/semester. Only five more to go then he too, is out of school. Can’t be reminded often enough how fast life goes. Yesterday was our annual Christmas cooking eve. For years we have forced the boys to be present in the traditional meatball making, now I think they…

Winter’s coming

This post I should have written a week ago. Now winter is here and according to the weather reports gone by Monday. It would have been great with a white Christmas. Today it was -18 C when Sam drove from work around 7 am. When walking Tesla (yes, with my studs) it was only -15…

That old!

For years I’ve been telling myself to get winter shoes with studs. Yes, that’s how old I am. When you’re living in a town built on the base of a ridge you need studs during the winter. Especially if you have this. I’ve been looking at one Swedish brand “Ice-bug“, but then I ran into…

No wonder people get stressed

I went to the my client’s office a while back. It doesn’t happen often. Thank God Covid19 taught us to work from a distance. One of the reasons I don’t visit the office is that the team I work with the most doesn’t sit there. Thereto it’s 1,5 hrs away (train or car) from my…

Sorry & thanks

Not that it matters, but lately I haven’t had time to share my small reflection in this blog. No, it doesn’t matter for the bigger parts of the world and world order. But I know regularity is important at least for algoritms. And I’m sure that also WordPress work with those. And in regards to…

And then there was light

I used to be a yoga person. As in practicing yoga regularly. That is once a week at yoga class. Maybe I have done an odd sun salutation at home, but that’s it. Not drinking no tasting tea, traveling to silent retreats or eating ginger. But I have done my yoga for years, now lately…

A weekend without botox or fillers

Just returned from a weekend with friends from high- and elementary school. We went to different exhibitions (among our wedding photographer Pontus Höök’s) and my friend bought a food mixer from the 70’s. We’ve been pampered in absurdity by our hostess, who really would beat Monica (F.R.I.E.N.D.S) and I haven’t driven as much in years…

Winter came

From +15 to -2 C in a week . Yesterday was a beautiful cold day. Today I woke up to a winter wonderland. I love snow. Hate to drive in it. But I got to the gym (and back). And today the Mr will return from Rome. Tomorrow it will probably all gone.

Have you ever heard?!

Looking around I see people that are so stressed. I must admit that I don’t see them that often anymore and this is probably a combo of 1) I don’t read (or interact) that much with others and 2) I and friends are in a different stage in life, were we simply have less things…

What do you do?

As I told you about a while back, the Mr has gotten himself a day job. Working shift is nothing but a memory. This means however, that we have a lot more time together. I’m “always” bragging about our relationship, which celebrates 30 years next summer. In hindsight, I’d say that one of the contributing…

Limitless

Lately I’ve been thinking a lot of limitlessness (? is that even a word? Well it is now). My previously post was for sure connected to it. Social media – a place where you can say what ever you want, no matter how foul, how hateful or how much it will hurt. Limitless. And I…

Is it time?

Some time back, I downloaded all my content from Facebook and Instagram and promised myself to stop posting (or at least limit my no. of posts) and so I did. For Facebook I only shared old content or content from others, nothing personal. On Instagram I went from posting almost daily (back in the days…

I’m not alone

Had lunch with a friend of mine. We talked about life and what’s happening and came to the conclusion we share an issue. We are both mother’s of two sons in similar age, not that I think that our offsprings’ gender has too much to about our common dilemma, which is – our ability to…

Freedom

I was asked by a high-school student to be interviewed about motivation. The first question was – what makes you motivated? And it got me thinking, what is it that get’s me motivated. I came to the conclusion that for me it is freedom. Freedom to have right do what I want. Naturally we can…

Season’s over

Today Fabian and his team played their last game for this season. A win. It’s been a tough and educational season as they played the top league. Now training continues as it does until Christmas comes. You gotta love football.

How I wish…

… I was a manson (gender neutral word for a person that could be any person but most likely is a man). Then I could walk around life with no idea of anything not directly connected to my own (as in me) life. Things around the kids (birthdays, friends, shoe size, schedules etc etc) or…

Great weekend coming up

Tomorrow’s my birthday! I love birthdays. Hopefully it will be better than the one three years ago… Besides the birthday, which will be calm. I have one movie visit “Mrs Harris goes to Paris”, one football game and a visit to the not so local real Italian pizzeria with real Napolitalian pizza. No, I don’t…

Note to all

If you are working or will work with me (or if you are currently working with someone like me) remember this: I’m a communicator, who at times (quite often today) uses digital tools and channels to convey my message. BUT it doesn’t mean that I’m the IT-support when that tool/channel doesn’t work. Then you turn…

“Your mind had understood, but your heart hasn’t”

It was a colleague who said those words to me last week. I expressed my feelings of seeing my last boy being in his high for his independence. With Sam it was easier, maybe because of the fact that I still had another one coming. It was so I almost didn’t notice it. But now….

So much stupidity

Watching/listening to today’s morning news. And I’m flabbergasted of the amount of effort people are willing to give, to avoid to take responsibility. And how poorly equipped we are to remove these bad apples (I don’t mean we should execute them, just secure that they can’t hurt more people, getting rid of them in the…

Him, myself and friends

I don’t want you readers to think that this has become a dog blog. But let’s face it. Both boys are nowadays kissing other girls than their mother (yes, I do spy on them and I’m not ashamed) and my role in their life is changing. I’m no-longer the centre of their universe and that…

Play date

So her best Ridgeback friend is down at her summer home and we were invited to come play. Great times!

Trying out the new camera

Bought myself a new mobile phone the other day. Haven’t done that in four years. The camera is really an upgrade and since the kids don’t want to model, I go for the little princess.

X-ray

We X-rayed Tesla’s hips and elbows today. With we I mean I. Getting people and animals sedated is not my cup of tea. Not that it’s me putting the drugs into their system, but I don’t like seeing them doze off. As I have my limits, it’s always been the Mr caring for the boys…

PMS

A question for the ladies. Do you get more evil than usual closer to your period? I don’t mean angry and irritated. I mean mean. Mean as in: “I really couldn’t care less if tears are brought to your eyes by my comments, I actually want you to be hurt you large pile of excrement….

Queen

Yesterday, we did our second dog show ever. Last time was pre kids and with our first Ridgeback. We are total amateurs. We knew this already, but it became very clear upon our arrival. Or I shouldn’t say we, I should say the Mr. This was totally his idea and he had to handle it…

New beginnings part II

For me contribution has always been important. One doesn’t live off others. That’s how I’ve been raised and that’s how we raised our kids too. All of a sudden we have a non student at home. Sam’s been working all summer, but after the summer he needed a “proper job”. And he got one. He…

New beginnings

This morning was epic. For our family. Or for my husband. After 22.5 years as an emergency response operator (20.5 at his current company) the Mr worked his last shift. A nightshift. During the kids whole life, they have been told to “keep it down” because dad’s sleeping. Had a mother who didn’t do much…

Nirvana

I think that the closest I come to Nirvana here on earth is, besides the obvious, is good cultural experiences. I have been moved by exhibitions, individual pieces of art, concerts, books and movies. And I feel blessed when something worldly can move me to my core. I remember watching the latest Joker movie back…

Old

Have I mentioned how old I’m getting? I know, that I over and over again mention that life is going too fast when things happen to the boys. But I never see the connection to me getting old. BUT what’s leading me on to understanding that I am getting old are all those things that…

Life reminding itself

You need them. Once in a while you need that inexorably punch in your stomach. A punch that shakes you to your core. A blow that makes an average Friday night important and reminds you that all your days are the most important you have. Because they are your life. I was aimlessly scrolling my…

The Friendship Inn

Last week it was Gothia Cup, the largest football youth cup. Fabbe’s team was there. His first time. As the mother I am, and can be. I took my work computer and camera and logged in at The Friendship Inn. Once again my childhood friend opened her doors for me and lend me a bed….

Perspectives of time

I’m conscious about time. In the bigger perspective. To stop daily and reflect over things (usually my children and/or feelings connected to everyday activities). This gives me an awareness of now. A now that tomorrow is part of the past. It gives me knowledge that I was present while alive. I believe this will grant…

Time for someone else

The Mr and I caught up time with a “date night”. Football was on the agenda. The Mr is, as you are well aware of, assistant coach for Halmstad bollklubbs (HBK) boys aged 16 and have season tickets. We took the train (so strange, but good for us to skip the car) and then I…

Paris report – Day#3

We are our way to the airport- hopefully they – the French – wait until tomorrow to go out on strike. Our last day was just as good a the two previous. With 16000 steps and with a lot of help from the metro we manage to cover the both parts of Paris we already…

Paris report – Day #2

Today we went in the opposite direction – towards Champs-Élysées. The mission was the same. Find a good deal. If the findings were, I’m not the one to tell. But I understood that the PSG jersey was. Even-though it is last season’s model (and most possibly therefore it was a bargain). I feel unbelievable blessed…