To be totally honest with you, when contacting Linnea and Happy Business I didn’t really know why I did it or what I wanted to get out from the coaching.

When I read the message I sent her, it was more a “I currently find myself at a time where I believe it would be a good opportunity to get coaching”. Not “I want to know this, this and this about myself” But I guess I remembered my own advise to my friend that coaching maybe was more about curiously exploring than getting assertive and clear answers.

We set the first date for the first conversation three weeks after.

As, the coaching was for me, and as it is important for me to optimize value, I decided to collect my thoughts around who I am, where I am, how I got here and what I’d like to get out of the coaching.

In these notes (a document which today is 35 pages long, including the findings of the coaching, yes, I am a text person) I wrote this:

I haven’t found a way to work without being “available” in order to get revenue. I have come to realize, to only offer my services in this one way, I will never be free in the way I want to be. And I need to be free, to be alive.

I also questioned if I was in the right field of expertise. If communication was where I truly wanted to be. If communication and writing was so important to me that I have led myself to believe. Maybe I would be better off in the e.g. caring business.

In summary, I had, after all, expectations on the coaching (of course why else do it) and I think it was wise of me to start contemplate around it, after all coaching is not a “full service” process. It’s more like IKEA – assemble your self (in a double meaning).

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