What do you do?

As I told you about a while back, the Mr has gotten himself a day job. Working shift is nothing but a memory. This means however, that we have a lot more time together. I’m “always” bragging about our relationship, which celebrates 30 years next summer. In hindsight, I’d say that one of the contributing…

Is it time?

Some time back, I downloaded all my content from Facebook and Instagram and promised myself to stop posting (or at least limit my no. of posts) and so I did. For Facebook I only shared old content or content from others, nothing personal. On Instagram I went from posting almost daily (back in the days…

PMS

A question for the ladies. Do you get more evil than usual closer to your period? I don’t mean angry and irritated. I mean mean. Mean as in: “I really couldn’t care less if tears are brought to your eyes by my comments, I actually want you to be hurt you large pile of excrement….

Will not!

Yesterday I heard Fabian coughing… again. He later complained about a soar throat. And then some more coughing. Last week the whole family was well after four weeks of cold from one to another and now we are back at it. I almost panicked when I heard the coughing. I will not WILL NOT be…

I’m one of them

Not in, say… a million years. I thought I’d be one. One of them. I actually used to loath them somewhat. Those people. The people who are done with their exercise before 7.00 am . But now I am. One of those who are standing “ready to go” (here I’m slightly exaggerating) at 5.50 am….

The joy of a painless tricep dip

I’ve always been active. Never with the intent to become the best in anything, just better and to be active. There were some years when the kids where smaller and when I didn’t prioritize movement. But I jogged/lumbered 3- 4 km a couple of times a week. This was the time when I did first…

Next step

For a good 1.5 to two years I have been living  the “easy life”, meaning no new goals or challenges (yes, since I am one of those who just loves a good challenge…). I’ve been very content where I am and where my life is. I have had (and still have) a good assignment, good clients,…

Nothing

We are currently doing nothing. Except waking up early as F is at day camp for his soccer club (and we don’t dare to leave the wake-up to him self…). But apart from that we don’t do ANYTHING and I love it. A new acquaintance made me aware that this is a talent not everyone…

Vacay – trip 1

Me and Fabian fabulous took the first trip of this vacation together with friends of ours (also mother and son). We spend 2.5 days at beautiful Österlen. Sigh. Thanks to other friends the trip could be spent in a very nice cabin (the kind I would choose if I would have one. For all of…

If I only

If I only were like these friends. They who, when I wish them happy travels and complained about my cold, delivers a fresh garden bouquet within minutes. I am not like that. I’m not even close to that level of consideration. But happy that I’ve got friends that are. Highly appreciated.    

Happier

Today I’m happier, especially when I don’t think about yesterday and when thinking of the Sam who passed his exam to his red belt in taekwondo. Proud! Of course.

Right direction

I claim I’m going in the right direction when my PT brings a vest with 10 kg extra for me to wear during my session. BOOM! It also brings some secret service feel, which in turn brings some extraordinare glamour to my life, something I appreciate. With the result to be absolutely exhausted. Struggeling to keep my arms…

Why folks?! Why?

The other day a conversation with a friend raised the question “Why do people ask questions that is really none of their business? And the answer is simple. They are stupid. We all are. Some more than others, others in a different way. But we are all stupid. Our inability to see things from the…

4 a.m ADHD

Out of respect for the people that have one, I truly don’t think I have a diagnose. Instead I think I’m like most people, who most probably have structures of character that to some extent resembles  (but not in any way equals the full spectra of) a diagnose (and I have them all…). But if what…

Progress

Since September I’m back with my FABULOUS PT Jessica. I missed both her and what the result of her rehab (shoulder that’s been bothering me for years) and training did to me, my body and my mind. When I started this spring I got totally silent after say 15 minutes into the session. After that…

Path to happiness

There are several paths to happiness. One is through food and at lunchtime it’s called omelett. OMG! Soon 42 years old and I haven’t gotten it until now. I have always, since I was a child hated eggs. I watched with fascination my father eating his boiled breakfast egg. He beheaded it with his butter knife and it…

Awakening

It has been a while. A little more than a week since the upcoming presence of Jessica (my PT) raised my anxiety during the morning walk with the dog. But today she was here again and it was up for some more moves in the garden. I was close to tears when she cheered me…

New beginnings

Hmmm, one always says (one as a general, vague and unidentified person) it is hard to find new friends as you get old(er). What a load of bullshit. I’m just realizing that I have, in a very short time, found some new friends. Smart, open, women. Ready to give and ready to be around. That’s freaking amazing….

The best thing ever

Is of course my husband and kiddos. But shortly behind family comes, at the moment, Jessica. Jessica is a (my) personal trainer who (can) comes to your home and make you train. If/When necessary she could probably pull you by your hair from the couch (no extra charge). For two years I’ve been a blob. I just…

And the fab ones afterwards

When my fantastic PT (Jessica at Pure Living) has left, it is the best of minutes. I am tired like a graveyard, but feel fab. And realize how weak my upper body is, it is amazing that I can walk upright.

The trembling minutes

Before my PT arrives is just filled will agony and anxiety. I know it is going to be tough and I just want to get it over and done with… It actually looks a little like this (me doing all of below movements at the same time):

The second cup of coffee

The second cup of coffee during breakfast, when the kids are off to school, when the house is complete silent. That’s the best one. A slow start today. The ones I need from time to time, just to remember what life really is about.

Stupied

Currently I am quite low on my “best people in the world”-list and I usually top that one. BUT at today’s session (session 2) with my fab PT Jessica at Pure Living I learnt the hard way about the importance of “snacks”. Snacks as the in-between meals meal one (I) need if I’m about to exercise. Now,…

The amazing feeling of being debt free

To pay our bills and become debt free, is such as tremendous good feeling for me. There are some extra expenses now with the new house (or in the process of getting our new house). But now they to are paid and now I am ready to rock and roll again, i.e modest shopping, but…

Here they are

2/3 of my boys in da making. The boys father (both boys in case your were wondering-apparently some do…) is the best dad. As all parents (including myself even if they a minimum…) he has his flaws, but he is available. He won’t teach them how to build things, or fix cars but how to…

It is simple 

It is pretty simple. You like each other and you become friends. But friendship can change. There is no guarantee that one like one another after 25 years. Bring two husbands and four children into the pictures and there is a lot that doesn’t necessarily add up. Or it just does. Or maybe it is…

Just a number?

Watched (please don’t judge) “The millionaire matchmaker” yesterday. Mostly for an educational purpose, to show what kind of of partner the boys should and shouldn’t choose. But also because there’s NOTHING else to watch a Saturday night… Anyway, one of the male millionaires was 45. 5 minutes after my own mental reflection the Mr expressed…

Mother’s day

The scent of the Lillies of the valley standing on the kitchen table reach my anosmia and reminds me that they summer together with the last day of school IS here (even if the whether tells me differently). Yesterday (Swedish Mother’s day) was spent at my childhood home (most probably for the last time) as my…

Naturally beautiful

I have not always appreciated nature. By all means, nature has always been close to me or vice versa and I have always been part of it. But have I appreciated it? It might be so that as it has been such a natural part of my life I have taken it for granted. As a photographer…

Photography

Photography does wonders for my soul. I forget everything when I take pics. And how I love to use nature for my palette. Wonder why I do not do it more often. On my second instagram account, @signed_louise I focus more on photography as a creative expression and not so mucg as a visionary diary. There…

So damn proud

I am so damn proud over both my sons. They are spectacular even if not flawless.  Anyhow, yesterday I needed moral support to get my butt out running. I asked for support and after some persuasion I got Sam to join me.  So we ran, together in the spring sun. Sam running, talking. Me running,…

Keep one in your pocket

l looked through (as I do from time to time) old blog posts and I found some pics from March 2010. And what do they tell you? To always, ALWAYS have an “almost four year old” close to you. When you do, you look at life in a brighter way.

Half an hour

A walk for half an hour is what you need. I have no scientific proof behind this statement. But it felt good. A half an hour walk by the beach with a happy dog and you have the best possible base for a good day.

Nononono

I did NOT sign up for this. A body not doing it’s stuff without fighting back. Not NOT ok. Did you hear THAT?! BODY.

Walking and talking

Today I meet one of my highschool friends. We set out for a walk. A two hour walk. Up a ridge (and down). Gotta strech some more. A good walk with some good talk.

He that seeketh findeth

As you all know I am not a christian in the traditional conservatory sense, but I have done my own interpretation of what it means to believe. Thoughts that for sure would send a witch-hunt after me during the 16th and 17th century. And by Golly if I haven’t, once again, found a passage in…

Queen of the slopes

After the first full day (six hours excl. lunch and one fika stop) of skiing there isn’t much to be said then: SKIING IS DA SHIT! When the entire family is rushing down a slope, we are on the top of the world and higher power loves us just a little more than the rest…

Nothing to complain about

Watched the re-run of public service’s new TV-show “Straight through the heart” a documentary about different children who have a need to be cared for at the cardiovascular department at Lund’s hospital. I cry at saved kittens so for me to emphasize with this kind of show is no surprise, but when the Mr bursts out “We…

Believe in the process

There is much strength in believing. Any practicing religious person (independent of religion) would agree with me. As habitant of the world’s most secularized country I am not of a believer of religions. But I do have faith in both myself and “the process”. The process is anything you (or someone else) started and all you…

Fabulous exersice

OK, I admit, parts of me would like to qualify as Victoria’s Secret model, or at least as a 150% sister of one. Even if my logic me understands that it will never happen (as I got my mother’s DNA and not my father’s) there is something else about exercise that I have forgotten during my one…

All I need is

A blooper show and my day is done. Laughing and crying at the same time – good start of 2015!

Proud

If you generalize, Swede’s are very poor at being proud over them selves. We are usually not the ones who will climb up a mountain and scream out our joy for being ourselves, just because we are soooo good. Or, maybe that is exactly where we would do it, as nobody would hear us on the…

A little wish

While I was dying of my minor ebola case last Friday night. I heard both the Mr and our oldest feeling for me. I woke up every 30 minutes to rejoin the bathroom. And all Saturday I tried to catch up the lost sleep of the night before and getting my body back to status…

So that’s settled then

It’s clear that our youngest will not work within the medical field. At the slightest chance of seeing blood on TV (or anywhere else) , he has something better to do elswhere. Just like his grandmother then… ;). It is also clear that I am eating up my day in bed yesterday. I am now…

Another day another doll…

Vacation continues and before the first rain hit we captured some more rays and crabfish, today we went to Laxvik.

2.35 pm

2.35 pm eight years ago I realized I was going into labour. I was at Tobias’ cousins doorstep and an hour before I had looked at the watch once before, just because. I was 16 days overdue and had met the doctor previously that morning and gotten an ok to be induced the day after. As…

Cuddles

Just had the best time of the day. When the kids go to bed and you take those minutes for cuddles and laughter. Our oldest one, is the one with most similarities in looks with me. People who have gotten to know me through Sam, always tell me how much alike we look. Poor boy….

Music is good for the soul

For me, music is liberating, it goes diectly into my soul and I cry and laugh to it. It doesn’t matter what kind it is, as long as it makes you feel good, it is good. This song makes me feel good, makes me happy: Com’ on peeps, sing out loud and dance!

Ahhhh Sunday

After a effective day (OK hours) in the garden I took the boys to the beach, while the Mr went to sleep for his nightshift. Oh, what a day it was. I had my first dip in the ocean. We ate Sam’s home made mudcake, drank elderberry juice (also homemade), played Uno, read aloud, built…

Once upon a time

Once upon a time there was this boy. A hearty, intelligent, creative and happy boy. He was very keen on following rules and making right, always putting excellence as his goal. One of the last days of the semester of his fourth school year he went to school as usual but forgot one very important thing….