Have you ever heard?!

Looking around I see people that are so stressed. I must admit that I don’t see them that often anymore and this is probably a combo of 1) I don’t read (or interact) that much with others and 2) I and friends are in a different stage in life, were we simply have less things…

Freedom

I was asked by a high-school student to be interviewed about motivation. The first question was – what makes you motivated? And it got me thinking, what is it that get’s me motivated. I came to the conclusion that for me it is freedom. Freedom to have right do what I want. Naturally we can…

Season’s over

Today Fabian and his team played their last game for this season. A win. It’s been a tough and educational season as they played the top league. Now training continues as it does until Christmas comes. You gotta love football.

“Your mind had understood, but your heart hasn’t”

It was a colleague who said those words to me last week. I expressed my feelings of seeing my last boy being in his high for his independence. With Sam it was easier, maybe because of the fact that I still had another one coming. It was so I almost didn’t notice it. But now….

Him, myself and friends

I don’t want you readers to think that this has become a dog blog. But let’s face it. Both boys are nowadays kissing other girls than their mother (yes, I do spy on them and I’m not ashamed) and my role in their life is changing. I’m no-longer the centre of their universe and that…

Trying out the new camera

Bought myself a new mobile phone the other day. Haven’t done that in four years. The camera is really an upgrade and since the kids don’t want to model, I go for the little princess.

New beginnings

This morning was epic. For our family. Or for my husband. After 22.5 years as an emergency response operator (20.5 at his current company) the Mr worked his last shift. A nightshift. During the kids whole life, they have been told to “keep it down” because dad’s sleeping. Had a mother who didn’t do much…

Perspectives of time

I’m conscious about time. In the bigger perspective. To stop daily and reflect over things (usually my children and/or feelings connected to everyday activities). This gives me an awareness of now. A now that tomorrow is part of the past. It gives me knowledge that I was present while alive. I believe this will grant…

And the little one ❤️

Last day in junior high for this lad. I just can’t believe what time has done. I know I sound like a broken record but I just don’t. I’m so proud of both my boys.

Prom

There are so much happening in Sam’s life right now. Prom was one thing happening this week. I would’t say that prom in Sweden is not the same as in the US. First I thought it had to do with tradition, but the I realized that I had one and that is… years ago. But…

Check ✅

An immense milestone was reach yesterday for our first born. Driving license. Oh they joy. It has been a somewhat struggle, but he kept the spirit, with strong support from his partens (primarily his mother I’d say). For me as a parent it’s paradox feeling. Happy for his success but also worried for the fact…

20 minutes at the mall

If that’s (header) what I get I sure take them. I’m not like my old teenage me, who L.O.V.E.D to shop. Loved it! Now I think shopping is both boring a bad for the the environment. But as you know, I love to be around my children. So after yesterday’s game, Fabian and I went…

Them – again

I don’t know if it’s because I’m a nostalgic sucker, because I’m getting old, because my family is my universe, because I am me or a combination of all above. But them kids. Gee, what is happening and I can I cope? This is nothing you think about getting pregnant or after delivering your baby….

A good week

Yes, the week has been extremely good, I guess it started already last Friday. Sam had his theoretical exam for his driver’s license. You must pass the theoretical one before the practical exam can done and the license is officially yours. Last time, for his moped license, he had some issues. Absolutely not for being…

Have faith

Yesterday there was a party for our young adult. 15 friends showed up (they were invited). Young adults, mainly of the male gender. What a great bunch! When the party was over the last ones standing both initiated and handed the cleaning – the house was almost in a better shape after than when they…

The best

Sam bought the family the best Christmas gift ever – a chess game. Chess?! The closest I’ve come to understanding chess is watching all episodes of The Queens Gambit. Chess has always frighten me. The pieces are many, have funny names and can go in different directions – all in different ones. It’s all just…

They made it

Fabian’s football team had qualifying games for a national league (which of course is not one, but several). Anyhow, there were three teams qualifying and… Do you know what?! The boys did it. So next season they will meet fierce competition, making them better players. Fabian chose to get ill after the first game and…

Hungry for more

Yes, sometime us happy people are very VERY provocative. Like yesterday, when I woke up at 05.30 when the Mr’s alarm went off (I mean, someone’s gotta work) and didn’t even get upset about it. Instead I felt grateful. Instead of moping I took the opportunity to improve myself. I listened to a pod, read…

What’s the difference?

Isn’t it strange? That we encourage some with their dreams but not others? Why is it OK to become a doctor or a lawyer, but very seldom we don’t greet people with the same enthusiasm when someone says they what to pursue a career in basketball or become a painter? When those ambitions are mentioned…

The delusion of control

A couple of years back I had an assignment at a customer who was in the process of implementing “a self managing organisation”. I don’t know if this post has anything to do with the fact that the company was exploring self management and going through a transformation, but one epiphany during this time was…

Contemplation & evaluation

The Mr and I try to catch up every now and then. In a more luxurious way than just over the dinner table or during a dog walk. Not that the luxury is necessary, but it doesn’t hurt. As we haven’t done/travelled anywhere in 2020 due to covid, we decided to treat ourselves with an…

Wanting & needing

This year, on the last day of June, it will be 5 years since we moved into our new house. A house somewhat original but still very common. Already when we moved in, I had decided to build a new one as soon as the kids are out. Why? Because I want more from a…

Limits

Sometimes I notice how limiting others (especially grown-ups) are towards other people. It’s especially upsetting when they are it towards children (and naturally my own). Do not limit the brains of a youngster! Let them believe they can accomplish anything and everything. Hopefully, with my awareness, I’m not. On the other hand I know that…

Shared happiness

I won’t go as far as claiming that only shared happiness is real. But when you see someone else happy,  it is a gooood feeling. To see the Mr in his right element, teaching soccer, I really get happy.

Happiness

…is when you see people develop, questioning pre-conceived notions of how things should be.

Ignorance is bliss 

I’m aware that I don’t know everything (just say “IT integrations” or “IT migration” and I start hyperventilate). There are so many things I don’t know anything of, that life has spared me. This still makes it ok for me to have opinions about things, but before I do, I do need to acknowledge this…

Transformation

Getting reminded by Facebook what I did a year ago. Remember. The boys and I went to Gothenburg of a day out. If I recall correctly this was the day after Sam got rid of his cast. Could that be correct? But I guess it could. He wasn’t more than five weeks in the cast. Nevermind,…

How stupid would I be

If I didn’t cherish every single day. People might think I’m naive for thinking like that. I know I’m not. Reposting an old picture on my Facebook profile with our small dudes. So small. Even if I can’r recollect those times, I know I appreciated them. Because I do it every day. Every single day I…

Flashback

Facebook presented a clip of new version of an oldie goldie (yes, anything from the 90’s or earlier counts as that). Just as I said when I shared the clip. A good song is always a good song and everything becomes better with age. I loved this song in 1997 and even more in 2017. Gets…

The thrills of gardening

In the glamorous life of me, not much happens at the moment. Assignment, school, practice are all back on. But I had a garden designer stopping by to challenge both our garden to be and our selves. We are not garden people at all. No interest, no knowledge. I have thought that due to the fact…

Supernova

It’s a challenge, this life thing. Especially if you, as myself, demand progress. Particularly of myself. I love myself, but not so much that I don’t think there’s room for improvement. These areas of improvement are getting very clear as the kids develop. Great catalysts they are. The children. Love ’em for it even if I for sure…

Stupid is that stupid does

Is it so that mankind, to survive, continues to lure herself that life follows a progressive path? Because it clearly doesn’t and, what is worse, I get surprised every single time.  Life as a parent (ans maybe as a human being) is more one step forward and two steps back. I hardly had pressed the…

Bragging 

Talking about emotions and how one feels is not easy for all. It is a skill one often needs to be taught. But a skill that makes you learn a lot about yourself and can teach a thing or two to others. I, personally, live close to my feelings. I have the full spectrum, like…

Happiness can also be…

… when the same teenager comes home from youth club only because he remembers his practice. And ALL by him self (or at least without parental guidance). Maybe that brain of his is more than just looks….

Progress

Since September I’m back with my FABULOUS PT Jessica. I missed both her and what the result of her rehab (shoulder that’s been bothering me for years) and training did to me, my body and my mind. When I started this spring I got totally silent after say 15 minutes into the session. After that…

Damn it

The truths of all truths. The freaking power of now. My friend (she who taught me to eat eggs and omelett) said that I must read Eckhart Tolle‘s book “The power of now“. A book she found provoking but still could understand if not practically so at theoretically level and could understand its thesis. I haven’t…

Kickus maximus in gluteus maximus

That is what I received today. A big ass ass kick. To get going, to dare to break barriers and old habits. It is so hard and I do question if I need to, while I in parallell know that if I don’t, I just use fears and laziness to become scapegoats to what I really want from…

Screw you Mercury

Apparently Mercury is in retrograde. I’m not a firm believer in astrology more than Libras are the kick-ass zodiac sign (smart, charming, lovable etc. etc.) nor do I fully understand what it means, but it ain’t good. But on the other hand it explains a lot and things will turn (for the better) and until…

Finally

I have finally learnt to make a fire with only paper, cardboard and wood. I will survive the apocalypse and earned the right to call myself adult. Wicked!

To know what you want and get it

Personally I am all for goal setting and delivering. I’m also very aware that I as a person many times am perceived as very selfish for the fact that I set my goals after what I want. On the other hand in my quest to fulfill them I do not play foul or I hurt people (at…

Find those people

As a freelance and consultant I do not expect to get praise. I get paid ;). My raison d’etre is to be used where needed, because of my skills (and persona). But, since I started my own business I’ve received so much more positive feedback based on my deliverables. It could be so, that I perform better now,…

You only live once right?

Today I did something crazy, something out of the blue, probably won’t happen and in total contradiction to one of my latest posts. It is a little bit like, be careful for what you wish for, you might just get it!  Happy Midsummer all. 

Another mother’s day

Very few have missed that my sons are my everything. The inspire me. They make me laugh and they are one of the reasons why I am happy. To share their successes and adversities creates an additional dimension of life. One that is not even possible to compare to anything else. Last night Sam was…

Nostalgia 

As my parents have sold our childhood home we are “forced” to clean out. And for some reason we have saved a lot. Like old schoolbooks. And I love it. I have a long walk down memory lane showing our kids how great I was at math and what a terrible speller I was (am)….

Leap

For all of you who are thinking about it. You know, that thing you want to do that is different from what you do today. Do it! For God’s sake do it! Just do it. You might fail, probably not. You will have tough times, but you will have times of ridiculous joy. And no matter how…

Trying to convince myself

I know that the best thing I can do is to just go with it, there is not much/anything I can do. And that is killing me right now. To know what I want, to have it at an arms length, but still way out of reach and foremost out of my control. Trying to…

Call me a bought crybaby, I do not care

I know this is content for Pandora jewelry. And I do exactly what they want me to do with it – share it. And I don’t ever care much for gems. I cried before the first frame was done showing. Kids, there aint nothing better.

There is a time for everything

Two summers ago the Mr and I stood by the ocean while our kids were swimming and playing in it and asked ourselves; “Is it time to move back?” 16 years ago we left the Mr’s home town to move to the other side of the country. Two years later we were looking for a house to turn into a…

He that seeketh findeth

As you all know I am not a christian in the traditional conservatory sense, but I have done my own interpretation of what it means to believe. Thoughts that for sure would send a witch-hunt after me during the 16th and 17th century. And by Golly if I haven’t, once again, found a passage in…

Thoughts

For many people it is action that is the missing factor. They know exactly what they should do, “if only”. One could describe them in a negative manner like people not having the balls to get their shit together and do something about their lives. I would probably describe them as “scared”. It is hard to…