What happened

Today Sam came home with his graduation cap. I can’t comprehend this. Our oldest is done with school. He’s officially a real adult and we don’t need to care for him. Naturally I teared up. I’m so not ready for this and I force myself to remind myself what his daycare teacher Helene told me,…

The best

Sam bought the family the best Christmas gift ever – a chess game. Chess?! The closest I’ve come to understanding chess is watching all episodes of The Queens Gambit. Chess has always frighten me. The pieces are many, have funny names and can go in different directions – all in different ones. It’s all just…

Shared happiness

I won’t go as far as claiming that only shared happiness is real. But when you see someone else happy,  it is a gooood feeling. To see the Mr in his right element, teaching soccer, I really get happy.

Vacay – no 2

After returning from Österlen, but before celebrating F’s 11 birthday, I stoped by at home, re packed and went off to a short overnight trip with “the women”. A constellation of women where I feel very welcomed but also a little as the least sharpest tool in the shed. I know that this feeling is…

Perks of parenthood

Although one might not think it reading my latest posts, there are perks of being a parent too. One of the greatest gifts is to take part of and enjoy the interests and development of your kids. Yesterday it was the annual futsal cup in our area. I think Fabian has played it every year…

Supernova

It’s a challenge, this life thing. Especially if you, as myself, demand progress. Particularly of myself. I love myself, but not so much that I don’t think there’s room for improvement. These areas of improvement are getting very clear as the kids develop. Great catalysts they are. The children. Love ’em for it even if I for sure…

Never settle

This clip comes up over and over again in my Facebook feed. I had a look and I was surprised that I knew so many of the lyrics (especially since I’m tonedeaf). What surprised me even more was how many memories I have to the songs and what feelings and places were connected to them. Parts…

Progress

Since September I’m back with my FABULOUS PT Jessica. I missed both her and what the result of her rehab (shoulder that’s been bothering me for years) and training did to me, my body and my mind. When I started this spring I got totally silent after say 15 minutes into the session. After that…

Damn it

The truths of all truths. The freaking power of now. My friend (she who taught me to eat eggs and omelett) said that I must read Eckhart Tolle‘s book “The power of now“. A book she found provoking but still could understand if not practically so at theoretically level and could understand its thesis. I haven’t…

Kickus maximus in gluteus maximus

That is what I received today. A big ass ass kick. To get going, to dare to break barriers and old habits. It is so hard and I do question if I need to, while I in parallell know that if I don’t, I just use fears and laziness to become scapegoats to what I really want from…