Currently I am failing miserably at this “happy” thing. I do have short highs, but something brings me down all too fast. This is nothing new. This is how life (mine) is and one gotta continue to live. Personally I need to find some new truths and adjust my world to something that it clearly…
Category: Me
You live, you learn
Not in a million years I thought I have friends and aquintances with a weak intelligence. And I don’t. But apparently there are aquintances to these friends and acquaintances who have. Who fabricate new truths with parts of it and have the audacity to spread their version as the truth. Without any interest to check if…
Contempt
It must be some kind of loathe, I can not interpret it as anything else. It almost happens at the exact same time each year, when my husband shows such a unhidden contempt towards me and our children. He must truly despise us. Or why would he otherwise do it? And continue to do it. Year, after year,…
And one of the dog
Not the nicest background but good enough I’d say.
Tulips
It was a long time ago I posted a picture not taken by my smartphone. So here are some of the tulips in our garden.
At the top while at the bottom
Even if the header is slight exaggeration of my current status I can not find a better way to describe the man-cold that currently has taken hostage over my body. But even if I am close to death, I joined the rest of the family for a walk in the forrest today. And it was…
Bullshit
I am not that stupid kind of gal. So pleeeeeeease if you can’t tell me the straight up truth, do not communicate with me at all. I really get a rash from BS AND I loose trust in You. Just so we are clear.
Today’s words
I’ll keep it short today. This is how I feel. Darn good song to. Once again, the heck with Jante
Compliment
It is so little that does it for me. Just a few, polite words from a stranger. Who not only like my way of writing (from reading this chronicle, only in Swedish I am afraid) but who also respected me and complimented me on my way of living (and this guy knew what he was…
To change or not
“It is not the strongest or the most intelligent who will survive but those who can best manage change.” ― Charles Darwin I read his quote on a restroom wall in Lisbon, Portugal once and since then it really stuck to me. In my strive for personal happiness I live by it (even if I, at times, am…
This thing called parenting
It is not easy to be a parent. Just as little easy it is to be a kid with parents. During my 11 years of motherhood I have developed and improved my ways. From a totalitarian to more a more coaching approach. And I do find it more intressant, more rewarding yes, better with my “new”…
Just some pics
Took the dog to the beach for a walk the other day. It was a great spring day.
Goals
Sittning in the couch with our two offsprings watching Madagaskar II. The Mr is off on his soccer team’s training camp in Denmark. This morning I had four goals: 1. Mow the lawn 2. Turn the soil in the garden land 3. Take out the bbq for the season’s first bbq. 4. Fixing the trampoline…
Insults
I get so confused. I do not get so angry anymore, I just get confused. Why on earth do people use insults related to sexual preference or gender, i.e. gay, pussy, faggot, bitch etc etc (these kind of insults are common in Swedish to)? Of course it says more about them then the person they…
Doing wrong, making right
I think that people sometimes have too high expectations on each other. Or I should say I have. I dislike doing wrong and I dislike being done wrong to. But after all we are only humans. And it is not really any problems in doing wrong. It is all about how you handle it. I…
Every other
Nowadays the Mr’s and my lives are really overlapping. When I am at home, he is away and vice versa. When I fall a sleep on the couch he is awake and vice versa. The evil cause is soccer. And shift work. And starting your own business. I say it is temporarily. It better be….
Mohahahaha
I love being evil. Love it. To be a telemarketer must be the worst occupation ever. Especially if they get my number to call. I am never rude, I only answer their questions (which they never expect ending up with us talking in each other’s mouths). I am always very polite and this manner make…
Mothers and mums
Today it is my mum’s birthday. My beloved mother, who I once, at 13, called “bit**” to her face. I only did it that one time and if looks could kill… I would not be here to write this post. My mum is as far from a “bitch” one can come. She is there, always….
Fathers and dads
Saturday, a second cousin to my children made a speech to her father turning 50. She’d realized that many her friends were quite angry with their fathers as they had never been part their life. She had the best dad and she celebrated him for being that. I also have the best dad, a man…
Knackered
The Mr and I have the new year’s resolution to be more sociable. So after a slow start we now now went all in this week-end. Friday-Sunday party all night long. Thank God it is Monday so I get into the right tracks again.
Trust
Trust is the ultimate sign of love. I am thankful that I am trusted.
Food for the soul
This morning I did something that is the essence for me having my own business. I played hooky. The best thing to have your own business is not the millions you make (yeah right). It is the possibility to decide for your self. Sure, many of us have (had) quite flexible jobs that allows us…
To be mean
I can never really fully understand it. That there are people in this galaxy who want to be mean. No, I am not talking about children, I am talking about grown-ups who in social media and IRL (but much less often, because that is too scarry) say things just to hurt others. There is nothing…
Proud to be Swedish
There are many reasons to why I am proud to be Swedish. In general Swedes could be better at being proud. This was something I found very liberating when living in the US, to be “allowed” to be proud; over my team, my school, myself etc etc. This time I will share an example of…
This calls for Irene
So the first time (well, almost) since October I have been running. It was OK, I will be sore tomorrow, but right now it feels darn good. My running coach keeps telling me to remember this feeling, I never do and complain every time I am about to go out. But, afterwards, it is a…
Have you always been this cool?
I was actually asked this question last Saturday. The inquiring person were slightly influenced of wine (like that would have mattered). As I also was slightly under the influence, my first response was a smart ass “Of course (or similar, I can not really remember, but a cocky reply it was). The reply was followed by…
What is WRONG with me?
The answer to the question might be “a lot of things”. The Mr and I have always, consciously or not, wanted our children to be independent and self going. As soon as the Mr took over the parental leave for the second son, we have been on the right track (Fabian was extremely cautious with…
Children
Watching a film about child labour in the cocoa industry. I know that this is not the only corrup business, but there is something wrong. Terribly wrong. In the entire food business. We really need to demand to KNOW where our food comes from and under what terms they have been produced AND start paying…
Time
Time is a funny, but usually good, thing. For me, today time provides me with the opportunity to skip the new LEGO movie over a cup of coffee and an episode of Suits. Nice!
Two birds with one stone
A lot of people applaud me for being brave when I quite my permanent job to go for my own business. I tell them that it had nothing to do with bravery. It had nothing to do with bravery for the simple reason that I was not afraid. But today I have done two brave…
Younger peeps
There are few things I see as more interesting and giving than to have the respect and confidence of a teen. To be handed the possibility to be a sounding board to a teenager’s honest thoughts and feelings must be absolutely brilliant. One must feel like Yoda. Like a bottomless well of wisdom. The tricky…
Started
In a previous post I mentioned that I/we need to get started to get going to where we want to be. So today I did. With extreme fast and unexpected results. Exciting – yes. Scary – definitely. But at least we are on our way.
Flawless
I wouldn’t say that I am beauty pageant (thank God) material, but I do have the best skin ever. No acne – ever, very little wrinkles etc etc. Dermatologists and beauticians often congratulate me to my fantastic, flawless, porcelain skin. My skin is is great, except on an early Monday morning in mid February, when…
Zzzzz…
I am sooo tired. I need to get in bed earlier. Really.
Rush hour Skottorp
Once in while the freeway traffic between Sweden’s second and third largest cities gets re-directed via our village. This morning is such a day. Most probably caused by an accident or snowdrifts making the freeway too insecure to drive on. It’s days like this, when it becomes imperative to me that I need something more…
All these ladies
Yesterday I stayed up till 03.30 am (we are actually talking about this morning). That it self in an accomplishment. Not frequently occurring. Before that I ate (different oriental dishes) , I drank (wine and water), I danced, I laughed, I cried and I celebrated (the victory of my team’s music quiz especially). This I…
Just an ordinary Thursday
I have asked some friends and former colleagues for some feedback as I am taking this development class. And how lucky I am to not only have friends but to have the most intelligent ones. Yes, all the positive things are great to hear (but nothing really new 😉 ), but what I truly appreciate…
Light
There are advantages by living in the northern parts of the northern hemisphere. You get really good at appreciate light. After (about) midsummer (end June) and until mid/end December we are getting less of it. And yes, in the really far north there is no light at all for a short time (but that is…
Good things
I am convinced that good things come to those who work their butt off. And are nice. Apparently a tricky combination at times.
Offended
Reading, the first book of the “50 shades…” series. (Yes, I am well aware I’m the last one reading it. ) To my surprise I really like it. Anyway, I notice I got offended when the main character describes women, just over 40, as older women. Of course the character is in her early 20’s…
Ahhh Friday
This Friday I for the first time in my life fully understand and personally experience the fact that when you say no to certain things, you do say yes to other. Let’s celebrate
By golly
Sometime, like right now, I get so impressed by my brain. It is just so super! Do you get impressed? By yours I mean.
Me, Louise
I am so happy that I, for the time being, have figured out who I am, where I want to go and started walking. It has required me to be honest and tough towards myself, a lot of work at least for my mind. It has also meant that I needed to let go of…
Right here, right now
Sitting in my favourite armchair. A new book (well for me…), a cup of coffee, the afternoon sun sipping through the window and the rest of the family up to theirs. I am complete. There is nothing more I need. Happy happiness.
Gratitude
Yesterdays visits with friends left me with an even stronger sense to actively acknowledge gratitude. I really have nothing to complain about. Nothing, nothing at all. Besides our general health, yesterday left me grateful for; To have friends around me that challenge and allow me to challenge. GREAT ideas Both boys had a good first…
Louise Dock 