Facebook presented a clip of new version of an oldie goldie (yes, anything from the 90’s or earlier counts as that). Just as I said when I shared the clip. A good song is always a good song and everything becomes better with age. I loved this song in 1997 and even more in 2017. Gets…
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Right direction
I claim I’m going in the right direction when my PT brings a vest with 10 kg extra for me to wear during my session. BOOM! It also brings some secret service feel, which in turn brings some extraordinare glamour to my life, something I appreciate. With the result to be absolutely exhausted. Struggeling to keep my arms…
Another kind
Pride can come in different shapes but are always of the same magnitude. Like when your teen, without supervision (and actually with great opportunity to “forget” as his parents weren’t home), took the decision all by him self to wear the very ugly yellow reflex vest, that increases his safety to and from practice. Pride hit…
Non stick for negativity or just plain smart
My youtube clip in my last post, doesn’t do much to help balance our time’s biggest disease – aggregated stress. Aggregated stress is when you take each individual sanitized post in your social media feed and add it on top of each other, making you believe that your life has to have all of these (individual)…
Slope sliding
Returned home after a 7 day ski trip. Absolutely the best thing a family can do together. Absolutely the hardest thing a 40 year old body can do. But I got most bruises from getting up and down in the bunk bed… Today we will spend as good Christians, doing nothing. Tomorrow we need to…
Fact
Ok, this is not a subjective opinion, this is a fact (maybe an alternative one, but still a fact). Those who actively choose not to ski misses something spectacular in life. That is just how it is. Period.
Things are going to be alright
Left the kids with the instruction to make Fläskpannkaka. Nothing hard dish to make but had never been done before (by the Dock brothers). When I arrived back, it was standing there in all its glory. Proud over our sons and proud over myself for delegating. Things are gonna be just fine. For now.
From thinking to doing
I have, for some time, had the idea of making a a7 giftcard with the family on it. A personal way to accompany a (maybe) not so personal gift. I thought I would put my photographical skills to it, but it seems like I have had a hard time to get myself into that picture. So…
Unfair?
When sharing one’s emotions like I do, out in the open, with no filter more than a half hearted proofreading (usually after publishing), there’s a risk that people misunderstand and, God forbid, judge, not me, but the ones I’m writing about. I realize that my children as well as my husband, who over the years have…
Grey January
Took the boys and my camera for a spin. January is currently very grey and not much light to work with, which is both good and bad.
The thrills of gardening
In the glamorous life of me, not much happens at the moment. Assignment, school, practice are all back on. But I had a garden designer stopping by to challenge both our garden to be and our selves. We are not garden people at all. No interest, no knowledge. I have thought that due to the fact…
Good
Sometimes one just must acknowledge things. Things like one is pretty good at something. Just like that. Without comparison. Went through my gallery at my website http://www.ogonblickavlouise.se and just got reminded that I’m good at photography.
Lion
Went to the movie’s yesterday. Watched a film only by recommendation, hadn’t seen the trailer or read a single line about the plot (how’s that living on the edge for you). My advisor said to bring absurd amounts of tissues. I didn’t, but one of my friends did (thankfully) what friends do, shared the few…
Perks of parenthood
Although one might not think it reading my latest posts, there are perks of being a parent too. One of the greatest gifts is to take part of and enjoy the interests and development of your kids. Yesterday it was the annual futsal cup in our area. I think Fabian has played it every year…
Expectation management
In communication and especially in change communication, the most important thing to manage, is expectations. This is the fine act of balancing marketing and selling hypes with reality. In parenting this doesn’t happen too often. Simply because there is no one responsible but yourself for the change to come and as human beings we tend…
Stating the obvious
I read my Facebook feed, this last day of 2016. People concluding the year that passed. Wiser and filled with hope and energy for the year to come. Consciousness is good and hard. Because once seen, it doesn’t allow you to look away, without a really uncomfortable notion in your belly. At the same time,…
Nostalgia strikes a cord
Two more gifts to wrap. Then we are done. Tomorrow we have a teenager in the house, but something says he moved in this summer. Our tall, smart, kind, loud, emotional boy turns 13 tomorrow and I am just about to send his father a link to film I made with old and new photos…
Nothing to complain about
ChrIstmas Eve has come and passed. What a wonderful life. Thank you.
When you realize…
…that the homeshopping company didn’t send ALL the items (Christmas gifts) and when you realize that you haven’t double booked two standup shows… Two sides of the same feeling.
From us all…
… to you all. A very Merry Christmas.
Promotion
Time again for the 6 month promotion of Sam’s taekwondo. This time a red stripe to his blue belt. Passed. Proud parents, proud son. #andeverythingisforgotten #momsreallynervousagain
Supernova
It’s a challenge, this life thing. Especially if you, as myself, demand progress. Particularly of myself. I love myself, but not so much that I don’t think there’s room for improvement. These areas of improvement are getting very clear as the kids develop. Great catalysts they are. The children. Love ’em for it even if I for sure…
Me right now
A while back one of my oldest and wisest friends brought up the question of perspectives on life and how much social media influences us and the fact that we are constantly bombarded by “perfect pics” of others. I answered her that my personal conviction is that it very much up to us as individuals and…
But I’m not you
Teenagers, a people who are lacking the capability to understand the simplest consequences, can at the same time provide wisdom beyond many adult minds. Like Sam, in of our conversations yesterday, answered me: “But, mom, I’m not you.” Those are the moments one must not only remember but also reflect and revise your own shortcomings. I guess…
Up like a sun down as pancake
Classic Swedish saying. A day that started good (excluding the cold with sore throat and a light fever) just plunged back to the basement. The code word is teenager…
A ray of light
All one needs is a spontaneous “Thanks! You’re the best mum in the word.” after finishing the day’s studying for Friday’s test in Law and order. It makes you forget the fact that he, two hours earlier, drove you mad for forgetting to make the homework due today AND “forgetting” to complete it as soon as coming home….
The art of conversation
It’s said that Swedes suck at it. Conversations. You know the short ones with strategers, in a public environment. People you never will meet again, but if you take your time to listen him/her can provide you with wisdoms maybe not changing you but develop yourself. For two weeks I haven’t had a smartphone. During…
I recognize it
I recognize the feeling from when he was six. Exhausted, dejected and sad. But still a piece of hope.
Stupid is that stupid does
Is it so that mankind, to survive, continues to lure herself that life follows a progressive path? Because it clearly doesn’t and, what is worse, I get surprised every single time. Life as a parent (ans maybe as a human being) is more one step forward and two steps back. I hardly had pressed the…
Give up
Seriously I’m out of here. Not one more day as a teenage mom. And then the teenage time hasn’t officially started yet. 🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱
Me before you
“Mom, are you crying?” “Yes” (sobbing really loud) “Why?” “Because it’s so sad” “But, why are you watching it if you get sad?” “Because sometimes it is good to feel sadness”
What is it you don’t understand?
I see them all through my social media feeds. The people who don’t understand what happened. I don’t understand them. To start. I never have, and never will vote, for racist or misogynistic party. Ever. But people have voted. They have had their say. Let’s respect that. Even if we don’t agree. Now we (politicians…
Old memories and cinnamon rolls
Looking at post on Facebook and realize that EVERYBODY are away on vaca. EVERYBODY. Except us. It might be that we just built a filfy expensive house and need to save some money. But parts of me HATE it. Me too want to go away. Never the less I sat down to look at some old…
Never settle
This clip comes up over and over again in my Facebook feed. I had a look and I was surprised that I knew so many of the lyrics (especially since I’m tonedeaf). What surprised me even more was how many memories I have to the songs and what feelings and places were connected to them. Parts…
My best friend
She has blond and hopeless (i.e super thin) Scandinavian hair, quite tall, weighs according to WHO probably a few kilos too much. She’s passionate and too often too loud. She listens when I talk, she gives the best advice and she spars when I need perspective. Sometimes she tells me to stop whining and get…
Why me so happy?
Because I chose to be. Yes, it might sound harsh, not especially humble and too simplified, but I really truly believe it is the truth. Happy as in how I approach life. Not happy as I go around everyday laughing (but I do laugh at least once a day. With my husband, my kids, they are…
19+4 and counting
So we were late to it. After a little over 19 years together and two kids born in sin, we tied the knot 4 years ago. It was just the two of us and the two wonders we made. Just like we wanted it. Swedish New York based photographer Pontus Höök captured our day and…
Simplicity
To get an extra day of home office is apparently all I need. To be able to take the dog for a proper walk after the sun rises. A cup of my own coffee at the desk. Simple things that makes life so much worth living. I really need to get my life back on track….
Say what?
Fresh from the office floor I overheard this: “When your married you never get a break from your kids! But when you are divorced you like do.” I’m sure I’ve misunderstood it all, taking it from it’s context whatever, whatever… BUT my core still reacts to the comment and I wonder why. Cause I’m not…
It’s official
It must have happened in the last month or so. We (or someone) have been monotoring it VERY closely. And when friends came over Saturday we did a final check and to my horror it was “very clear”. Sam’s taller than me. It has probably been so for a while, but now there is no…
Amazing
So, here I am starting my 43:rd orbit around the sun. Doesn’t it feel just a little bit more special when you compare a year with your own personal journey around the sun? Anyway, I’m amazed(!) at the amounts of birthday wishes I have received. Totally flabbergasted over the digital and IRL greetings and tributes…
Realizing
Sam’s started “junior high” and it is clear that the tempo and amount around homework and tests are C.O.M.P.L.E.T.E.L.Y different from sixth grade. We are cool but demanding parents. We’re not demanding straight A’s (which is almost impossible to get in Sweden), we’re actually not demanding any specific grade more than he needs to pass. But, we…
4 a.m ADHD
Out of respect for the people that have one, I truly don’t think I have a diagnose. Instead I think I’m like most people, who most probably have structures of character that to some extent resembles (but not in any way equals the full spectra of) a diagnose (and I have them all…). But if what…
Not cut out for this shit
Kids, should I really have had them. Not because they are not spectacular. One (two) of a kind. The best. My everythings. But because I am not cut out for it. In periods I worry too much, far too much what is good for you (and most probably them, not that I tell them all)….
Happiness can also be…
… when the same teenager comes home from youth club only because he remembers his practice. And ALL by him self (or at least without parental guidance). Maybe that brain of his is more than just looks….
Progress
Since September I’m back with my FABULOUS PT Jessica. I missed both her and what the result of her rehab (shoulder that’s been bothering me for years) and training did to me, my body and my mind. When I started this spring I got totally silent after say 15 minutes into the session. After that…
What a way to start your day
This morning I was love bombed. What a best way to start your day. Two friends, independently of one another, “Instagramed” and Facedbooked the nicest things about me. And just because I am who I am. One can’t have a bad day after that. Thanks to them for sharing and thanks to me for being me. View…
Louise Dock 