I read something in an Instagram post or somewhat and again it struck me how anxious we (humans) are to do wrong, or to not do right. That in combination of the illusion of control, makes life, in my opinion, very unnecessary hard and complex. I remember going to a coach at a time when…
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The best
Sam bought the family the best Christmas gift ever – a chess game. Chess?! The closest I’ve come to understanding chess is watching all episodes of The Queens Gambit. Chess has always frighten me. The pieces are many, have funny names and can go in different directions – all in different ones. It’s all just…
My life – groundhog day
You know the movie! With Andie MacDowell and Bill Murray. That’s exactly what I feel my life is right now. I wake up (way too early according to my standards, at least my younger me standards) . And every morning starts with me tidying the kitchen. Remove stuff that weren’t (by myself or other family…
Alea iacta est
It’s truly uncomfortable when you start doubting yourself and your perception of things. Am I overthinking, am I delusional, when you start wonder who you can trust. That’s scary shit. But now it’s done.
Celebrate
Not 100% secure yet. But with that knowledge we still decided to celebrate. Better to celebrate one time too many. Let you in when we know for sure.
Play
I think I’ve mentioned that my biggest anxiety getting Tesla was how Buddy would react and adapt. The first days he really didn’t want to see her. But step by step he has accepted her. He’s the boss but at the same time has the patience of… I don’t know what.
Progress
Tomorrow we return to work – yikes! How will I, who work from home, manage… What is working is the relationship between Tesla and Buddy Boy. This is probably what I’ve worried most about. Also in general everything is progressing. Tonight we slept from 11.00 pm till 5.40. No nightly calls for the bathroom.
Isn’t she lovely
So the transition has started. We are progressing. Including Buddy.
Tesla in da house
So the day had come. To pick up Tesla. I‘ve been sooo nervous. I can’t believe that we actually have had three dogs prior and not to forget two children. I guess I’ve gotten old. Changes is just not for me. But Tesla is ❤️. One of the things I’ve been nervous about is how…
Proud, prouder, proudest
We barely made it home from our lunch date when our soccer app provided us with the news that Fabbe scored in his first ever game with youth aged 19. He was substituted in the 85th minute and scored in the 90th. I screamed (as I usually do when it comes to soccer) and was…
Windy walk
There are better ways to start a Sunday than driving your youngest to the soccer gathering at 06.20. But of course it’s worth it when you feel the energy through the loud music playing in the car. But there are not many better ways to spend Sunday lunch than with the Mr and friends at…
What’s a job really?
This week I have once again see that how people’s views on things can be really different. Which of course is ok. I guess what is important is that we all respect that our own view doesn’t fit all. Wether its age and wisdom or just something else that made me realize that a job…
I’m one of them
Not in, say… a million years. I thought I’d be one. One of them. I actually used to loath them somewhat. Those people. The people who are done with their exercise before 7.00 am . But now I am. One of those who are standing “ready to go” (here I’m slightly exaggerating) at 5.50 am….
Sittning here
Here I am, sitting and feeling ridiculously blessed. Blessed for all the birthday wishes sent to me. Especially of the friends taking 5 (!) minutes of their time and giving me a phone call ❤️. But especially for my precious PRECIOUS family. The wonderful husband and two equally magical sons. Picking out personal gifts hitting…
Tired of people
I woke up at 2 a.m thinking of a “problem” connected to my assignment. And as we all know, it’s stupid, stupid, stupid of people to start thinking of any problem (professional or personal) at this hour. It’s stupid out of two reasons: 1. You’re not getting paid for it (especially not if it’s a…
Joy
When you see the joy. You know it is all worth it.
New beginnings
Fabian changed football clubs during the summer. I will now eternalize his development on the pitch with him wearing yellow or blue jerseys.
When things don’t turn out
Sometimes things don’t turn out as you think. But then you can bake. With your son. When done you enjoy your fika.
Did I mention?
Shortly after Amsterdam, I and the lads went to Greece for a week. In the middle of the forrest fires (no we were 400 km from them) we had a very safe Coivd-19 vacay. I summarized it all in a video. And according to unknown sources there is a special edition under the working name…
One of these is ours
We have since early this year, been contemplating about the “substitute”. Buddy turned 10 earlier this spring, and the saying is “anything over 10 is a bonus” when it comes to the life expectancy for bigger dogs, as been in our conscience quite a long time. In combination with (just as As Covid showed us,…
My beloved Fridays
Yes, I am so aware of all my privileges. All. But still I’m wise enough to enjoy them. One thing I love just a liiiiitle bit more are my free Fridays. Where I have no, ok one, musts. The one must I have is my PT session (yes, yes, also privilege) and then nothing. Not…
Anything but grey
We’ve known each-other for 29 (!!!!!!) years. Crazy shit! And as we both have an everyday life with work, families and hobbies (she loves to winter bade – craaaaazy woman), we don’t meet that often. But we meet, once in a blue moon. Today we met half-way-ish in a grey, grey Bjärred, but our friendship…
Back to reality
So, I was back to work today. Well almost. The clients IT systems had deactivated my accounts so now, at lunch, I still haven’t been able to log in to any softwares necessary to do anything. Or as my case today, remember were I was five weeks ago. Yes, I took five full weeks off….
Finally – me too
I have waited SO long for my dahlias too bloom. This year was my first attempt on dahlias, because let’s face it – it seem to be a hassle to grow. So I started indoors and headed new sprouts and gotten many new plants. But after planting them outside, nothing happened. They didn’t seem to…
Amsterdam
After almost 1.5 years in isolation, we took the chance and carried through last year’s planned trip to Amsterdam and the Ajax camp. A week (Monday through Friday, 09:00-15:45) of football training. When I say we, I mean Fabian and his friend. Not me. The week was great. Football aside it was a week where…
Not much
Currently not much is happening. Summer has arrived in our part of Sweden and the weather has been nice. Maybe a little too windy and slightly colder the last days, but hey it’s not raining. Sam’s school has ended and Fabian is out on Tuesday. I’m waiting for vacation. The Mr is caring for our…
Mom’s turn
Today it’s Mother’s Day in Sweden. I drove by to say hi and I love you. I guess that’s the best you can achieve as a parent. Children who loves you.
Parents
I love my parents. I have very loving, supporting and committed parents. But still they are my parents and there are things I wish to have different in my relationship with my own children as the grow older. Yesterday they turned up for a short visit, both have received both shots of the vaccine and…
What’s a life?
I found a draft from 2019 with this heading “What’s a life”. Today I’d say it is what I have right now. Breakfast outside, sun shining (I had to block it with a parasol), training done and no plans what so ever. My life right now makes me extremely thankful. I take a minute to…
House druggy
In Sweden there are many “house druggies”. People who love looking at houses on housing marketplaces. Personally I think I’m more of a desolate house druggy. Or desolate houses regaining their life, by (often) young, enterprising people. Usually these houses are set on the countryside, far from the glamorous cities (with all their conveniences). But…
What would happen?
If we just one day said no. I will not do that? Or just stoped doing things? Stoped taking the freaking responsibility for everything. All the things that just happens to fall in your lap because no-one else is doing it. I’m talking about buying birthday gifts for EVERYONE, securing that the kids have clothes…
Hungry for more
Yes, sometime us happy people are very VERY provocative. Like yesterday, when I woke up at 05.30 when the Mr’s alarm went off (I mean, someone’s gotta work) and didn’t even get upset about it. Instead I felt grateful. Instead of moping I took the opportunity to improve myself. I listened to a pod, read…
The joy of a painless tricep dip
I’ve always been active. Never with the intent to become the best in anything, just better and to be active. There were some years when the kids where smaller and when I didn’t prioritize movement. But I jogged/lumbered 3- 4 km a couple of times a week. This was the time when I did first…
Gentle reminder
In a few days, it is once again International Women’s Day. With that said I want to remind you of what I wrote last year, after seeing too much of expressions of men’s gratitude and love for women in social media, much inline of the same spirit as Mother’s Day or Valentine’s Day. For me…
Jackpot
This weekend was a full jackpot in “adult points” – freely translated from Wikipedia “Adult points is a humous concept about personal characteristics and actions that characterize life as an adult.“ Naturally, being close to the 50, I and the Mr are more than adults, even if we still want to question that fact once…
The delusion of control
A couple of years back I had an assignment at a customer who was in the process of implementing “a self managing organisation”. I don’t know if this post has anything to do with the fact that the company was exploring self management and going through a transformation, but one epiphany during this time was…
Wanting & needing
This year, on the last day of June, it will be 5 years since we moved into our new house. A house somewhat original but still very common. Already when we moved in, I had decided to build a new one as soon as the kids are out. Why? Because I want more from a…
Freezing
Sweden is delivering cold weather, several degrees below 0 and -12 C several nights in a row. Even soccer practice is being cancelled next week, I don’t think that happened for 15 years. But EVERYONE is winter swimming. Without having a sauna! I’m not tagging along to that trend (either) Well, nothing to do just…
One thing
There is one thing I never want to be without in my professional life. Flexibility. Like the possibility to take the dog (and the Mr) for a somewhat longer walk on days like this.
Beautiful day
Today I’m going to enjoy the beautiful weather and contemplate on the things I’m thankful over. Outside in the beautiful weather.
Hugs
You know what? I miss them terribly. The hugs. The hugs I could give to my parents and friends. I’m sick and tired of this pandemic now. And sick and tired of the pharmaceutical companies who aren’t interested to get the vaccine out to the public as fast as possible, instead cynical to secure they…
Snow – again
We have received more snow! Again! You might think that as Scandinavian’s we should know all about this snow thing. But as resident of the southern parts of Sweden, snow is not so common. At least not nowadays nor being located by the coast. Where, during the winter’s, a lot of precipitation comes in the…
New skills
My son knows how to take blood samples! This is so cool! I would never do it. At least I don’t think so. When graduating high school he will be an assistant nurse. His current plan is to become a police officer. Well, for now he knows how to take blood samples.
What’s enough?
I amuse my self sometimes (in-between I forget that they are there) to watch YouTubers talking about Sweden. That’s because I’m quite patriotic (let’s be clear here: patriotism as in love and pride to a homeland and not nationalism). Anyhow, I watched one of these (the content and correctness of the video is irrelevant for…
Take it like a man
A couple (?) of years back I went to see this one man show “Take it like a man”. I had bought tickets for my oldest son too, but then he (sadly) decided not to join. It was great! A young heterosexual man talking about how he doesn’t fit in to the stereotypical role of…
Do you ever?
Do you ever get tired of yourself? I do. I just can’t seem to settle what I want to do? Maybe one can’t. Maybe some of us are constant searchers, who goes to one place to find another. I’m thinking of my professional self. Not my private. I am who I am (with room for…
Drafts
I have a number of posts in the draft’s section. I might finalize one/some of these one day. Maybe with another result and point that I had when I’ve started to write. But still.
Days like this
Today we did like many other Swedes – went out for a walk with friends. A great walk with even better friends. Rounded it off with and outside lunch and coffee. Now a fire and later this afternoon Man United vs. Liverpool. A good Sunday.
Louise Dock 