When looking at our youngest son and then taking a quick glance in my Instagram feed it’s clear. He is growing. Taking his first small steps into adolescence. Slowly that all childish features is leaving him. My boys. My precious boys. Life is impermanent, enjoy every moment of it, nothing will ever return.
Category: Life in general
Next level
Good Sunday, after carrying 6 cubics of soil to our lawn, me and the Mr left the kids for a glass (OK two) of wine with friends in the sun at one of the local hotels. We enjoyed it until… one kid made nuisance. The worst sort – whining. I have full respect for kids and their…
Over and done with
I can recall my mother at a time in life having big problems sleeping. Waking up at 03.30 am and never really going back to sleep until it was time to get up… I guess that’s where I am now. I think it has to do something with menopause… Come on, bring it on and then…
Them people
When celebrities and/or Joe Schmos, don’t take their responsibility to be reasonable and level headed, instead spread shit (like B-celebrities divorce and custody battles and/or pictures of mutilated children) with the excuse that they didn’t start it? Seriously?! Yes, it was wrong to start it all together but let those people own the stupidity – don’t…
Fridays
It is the best day of the week. After a session with my PT I am now enjoying a cup of coffee and BREAD (best cardamom muffin from the local bakery). And all before I have to start work. Brilliant. Welcome weekend!
Transformation
Getting reminded by Facebook what I did a year ago. Remember. The boys and I went to Gothenburg of a day out. If I recall correctly this was the day after Sam got rid of his cast. Could that be correct? But I guess it could. He wasn’t more than five weeks in the cast. Nevermind,…
Non stick for negativity or just plain smart
My youtube clip in my last post, doesn’t do much to help balance our time’s biggest disease – aggregated stress. Aggregated stress is when you take each individual sanitized post in your social media feed and add it on top of each other, making you believe that your life has to have all of these (individual)…
Why folks?! Why?
The other day a conversation with a friend raised the question “Why do people ask questions that is really none of their business? And the answer is simple. They are stupid. We all are. Some more than others, others in a different way. But we are all stupid. Our inability to see things from the…
Unfair?
When sharing one’s emotions like I do, out in the open, with no filter more than a half hearted proofreading (usually after publishing), there’s a risk that people misunderstand and, God forbid, judge, not me, but the ones I’m writing about. I realize that my children as well as my husband, who over the years have…
Grey January
Took the boys and my camera for a spin. January is currently very grey and not much light to work with, which is both good and bad.
The thrills of gardening
In the glamorous life of me, not much happens at the moment. Assignment, school, practice are all back on. But I had a garden designer stopping by to challenge both our garden to be and our selves. We are not garden people at all. No interest, no knowledge. I have thought that due to the fact…
Expectation management
In communication and especially in change communication, the most important thing to manage, is expectations. This is the fine act of balancing marketing and selling hypes with reality. In parenting this doesn’t happen too often. Simply because there is no one responsible but yourself for the change to come and as human beings we tend…
Stating the obvious
I read my Facebook feed, this last day of 2016. People concluding the year that passed. Wiser and filled with hope and energy for the year to come. Consciousness is good and hard. Because once seen, it doesn’t allow you to look away, without a really uncomfortable notion in your belly. At the same time,…
When you realize…
…that the homeshopping company didn’t send ALL the items (Christmas gifts) and when you realize that you haven’t double booked two standup shows… Two sides of the same feeling.
Supernova
It’s a challenge, this life thing. Especially if you, as myself, demand progress. Particularly of myself. I love myself, but not so much that I don’t think there’s room for improvement. These areas of improvement are getting very clear as the kids develop. Great catalysts they are. The children. Love ’em for it even if I for sure…
Up like a sun down as pancake
Classic Swedish saying. A day that started good (excluding the cold with sore throat and a light fever) just plunged back to the basement. The code word is teenager…
A ray of light
All one needs is a spontaneous “Thanks! You’re the best mum in the word.” after finishing the day’s studying for Friday’s test in Law and order. It makes you forget the fact that he, two hours earlier, drove you mad for forgetting to make the homework due today AND “forgetting” to complete it as soon as coming home….
Me before you
“Mom, are you crying?” “Yes” (sobbing really loud) “Why?” “Because it’s so sad” “But, why are you watching it if you get sad?” “Because sometimes it is good to feel sadness”
Simplicity
To get an extra day of home office is apparently all I need. To be able to take the dog for a proper walk after the sun rises. A cup of my own coffee at the desk. Simple things that makes life so much worth living. I really need to get my life back on track….
The world we live in
Thank you Mr Trump for providing the perfect example of what’s the problem in our world. It truly shows the world how men, by default, believe that they have the right to do whatever they want with women. This is the world we live in. In one where men are raised to go get whatever…
Realizing
Sam’s started “junior high” and it is clear that the tempo and amount around homework and tests are C.O.M.P.L.E.T.E.L.Y different from sixth grade. We are cool but demanding parents. We’re not demanding straight A’s (which is almost impossible to get in Sweden), we’re actually not demanding any specific grade more than he needs to pass. But, we…
4 a.m ADHD
Out of respect for the people that have one, I truly don’t think I have a diagnose. Instead I think I’m like most people, who most probably have structures of character that to some extent resembles (but not in any way equals the full spectra of) a diagnose (and I have them all…). But if what…
What just happened?
A month and a half into the semester and the son is Skyping with girls. Having a good time as far as I can hear. I didn’t see this coming.
Not cut out for this shit
Kids, should I really have had them. Not because they are not spectacular. One (two) of a kind. The best. My everythings. But because I am not cut out for it. In periods I worry too much, far too much what is good for you (and most probably them, not that I tell them all)….
What a way to start your day
This morning I was love bombed. What a best way to start your day. Two friends, independently of one another, “Instagramed” and Facedbooked the nicest things about me. And just because I am who I am. One can’t have a bad day after that. Thanks to them for sharing and thanks to me for being me. View…
Happiness is…
…when the teenager comes home after practice for a late supper and BY HIM SELF puts the leftovers in a container and place them in the fridge. There can be peace on earth one day too.
Gahhhhhh!
Really?! REALLY?! REALLY?! I know, neither me or the Mr are Mensa material and neither is our kids. But is it too much to ask for a little brain activity. I know I shouldn’t but I get really scared when our offsprings show no mental capacity. This combined with lack of effort. OMG, where will…
Death as a constant companion
No, there is no known fatal decease around, luckily. But not having the boys around get me thinking of loosing them. The risk is as big (or little) as the sit in the neighboring room, but it gets so much more scary and more frequent (uninvited) companion in my mind when they are not around….
One time at band camp
I wasn’t a summer camp kid. As my mother was a stay-at-home-mom/working from home, I always stayed at home the full summer break. As Sam can’t have a real summer job until next year (the luck of having your birthday in December. Personally I started out quite early at 9 or 10 with simpler chores at…
T – 7
It is near now. In seven days we will move, hopefully to our new house, but for sure we will move. We will have somethings to finish after moving in, like garden, patio and garage. But we will take it in due time. We went through the house with a representative with the builder (Mjöbäcksvillan)…
Happy Mother’s day – to me
It’s almost 13 years ago I became a mother. Kids have always been part of my “life plan”, but I never felt that strong conviction in my soul that I must become a mother – until the day I actually became one. From that day, they have been the most important beings in my life….
Thank you internet
Things usually doesn’t disappear by themselves unless you are watching a magician doing his (her) tricks. But today (or at least sometimes during the last week), so help me Lord, a file disappeared from my computer. A very important file. I am 100% positive that I didn’t throw it away. It was too important to accidentally…
Kickus maximus in gluteus maximus
That is what I received today. A big ass ass kick. To get going, to dare to break barriers and old habits. It is so hard and I do question if I need to, while I in parallell know that if I don’t, I just use fears and laziness to become scapegoats to what I really want from…
Wonderful
There are several reasons to complain at times. Times when life is just not what one deserves or expect. And there are days when you can take a step back and just realize that it could be so much worse. Tonight it was one of those days. Even if the boys were reluctant we made it….
In every teacher…
… is an aspiring actor. The other day I went to Fabian’s after-school activity. In Sweden all children with working parents have the right to attend “after-school activities (often/always? provided by the school/municipality) till they are 12 (thereafter they are considered to be old enough to care for them self). Anyway, parents were invited and…
Screw you Mercury
Apparently Mercury is in retrograde. I’m not a firm believer in astrology more than Libras are the kick-ass zodiac sign (smart, charming, lovable etc. etc.) nor do I fully understand what it means, but it ain’t good. But on the other hand it explains a lot and things will turn (for the better) and until…
When happiness doesn’t show
I have written about it before. This happiness shit. And I am one of them who claims that happiness is good for you, that it is something to strive towards and live in, at least it is for me. My happiness is always based in my own needs. And never, at least not consciously, measured with…
Out in the cold
I decided to join the kids at school today. I asked Fabian yesterday if there was any particular class he really wanted me to join and he clearly stated “PE”. So I planned the day accordingly. This morning when I shared my plan our oldest response was: “What?! wait?! Once more, are you coming to…
I am…
… the happiest woman alive. I am going through the videos on my YouTube channel and realize that I am truly blessed. I have a good life and if I wouldn’t understand and cherish it I should be burnt on the Walpurgis Night bonfire, like any common witch of 17th century.
Thank you
I want to personally thank the scriptwriters/actors to Catastrophe; Rob Delaney and Sharon Horgan. Catastrophe is the absolutely the best comedy series in the world at the moment. You know I’m a bad ass Modern Family fan too, but Catastrophe is European (i.e. allowed to be straight-up and dirty and getting away with it). 100% recognition at times. This…
Who on earth?
Yesterday, during lunch, the Mr reminded me that we once had julbord at the restaurant we were at. And I remembered. And, then I remembered that the kids were with us. Seriously, who in their right mind would let us have kids. Who allowed us into a restaurant at all? For sure, teens or 10…
The second cup of coffee
The second cup of coffee during breakfast, when the kids are off to school, when the house is complete silent. That’s the best one. A slow start today. The ones I need from time to time, just to remember what life really is about.
Love
In the processes of moving you find stuff. Stuff you didn’t know you had, but when finding them you are very happy that you did. Like this one. Mum, dad and Sam at his second birthday. Love is everywhere.
Stupied
Currently I am quite low on my “best people in the world”-list and I usually top that one. BUT at today’s session (session 2) with my fab PT Jessica at Pure Living I learnt the hard way about the importance of “snacks”. Snacks as the in-between meals meal one (I) need if I’m about to exercise. Now,…
Wake-up call
Yes, this is how I woke son no. 1 up this “morning” (11.00 am). A day in the Dock household will never become boring.
Mornings
After the rather loathed “waking up” part, which is a long and tiresome part in my life, I love mornings. Love the speed (i.e. no speed) the breakfast, morning news and the coffee. Wish all my days could be mornings.
Final episode
So, what are my last favorite songs that I want to share, that have been (are) important to me. I’ll end with two. Both will be played at my funeral. Fame, remember the TV-show? I wanted to be Coco. I just LOVE Irene Cara’s lead song and I do believe there is a hidden statement in it…
On top of things
Today I got a reality check, making me realizing that I am one of the old ones. Paying stuff at the pay desk and turning to my son to have him answer the cashier, only to find out that they were waiting for me to register… I who always has been on top of things…
Louise Dock 