2/3 of my boys in da making. The boys father (both boys in case your were wondering-apparently some do…) is the best dad. As all parents (including myself even if they a minimum…) he has his flaws, but he is available. He won’t teach them how to build things, or fix cars but how to…
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I got a Facebook challenge from one of my oldest and dearest friends. She like me is a photographer and blogger. She wanted me to share my top 7. songs from my life. Really? I’m soon 42. There is no way 7 songs will be enough. So, as I usually do, I go my own…
How fast we learn
Realizing how fast we learn. All of us. Not just children. Today I gave the “10 min speech”. Informing the rest of the family of when we need to get going. Something we always did when the kids were small to prepare them and make the progress smoother. Due to Sam’s broken extremity, I’ll once again follow them to,…
Shit in – shit out
I get ridiculously fulfilled by conversations. Conversations between smart individuals (myself included). The type of conversations that do not seem to have no end. Where you go from topic to topic to share and learn. Conversations with people who can argue and question you with full respect of you and your viewpoints. And where your viewpoints are…
It is simple
It is pretty simple. You like each other and you become friends. But friendship can change. There is no guarantee that one like one another after 25 years. Bring two husbands and four children into the pictures and there is a lot that doesn’t necessarily add up. Or it just does. Or maybe it is…
Expectations
“Mama always said life was like a box of chocolates. You never know what you’re gonna get.” Isn’t that the truth. Our winter vacation started with a fractured foot for Sam. He was a happy camper after the day’s private snowboarding school and wanted to be signed up for another one today, and of course…
Feedback
Feedback is not always easy to give. There are way, as always, that are better than others. And people in general should know, at least be aware, what these ways are e.g. like this ones (there are others, google) if they are about to provide it. And then there is the receiving part. Gahhhhh! The people…
Zlatan is in da house
In our family we have entered a new era. The era of young boys smelling gooood. For Christmas and birthday our sons got things to make them smell favourably. And it sure smells. Walking into F’s room is like walking into a mist of early manhood. I do wonder if anything is actually sprayed on…
Just a number?
Watched (please don’t judge) “The millionaire matchmaker” yesterday. Mostly for an educational purpose, to show what kind of of partner the boys should and shouldn’t choose. But also because there’s NOTHING else to watch a Saturday night… Anyway, one of the male millionaires was 45. 5 minutes after my own mental reflection the Mr expressed…
What you need
One think that all you need is good friends. But unfortunately it is not that simple. You need smart friends. Insightful friends. Who can sparr you when you need it. Who leaves you filled with energy to take you to the next level. And thankfully I have these friends. Thank you. You know who you are.
Finally
I have finally learnt to make a fire with only paper, cardboard and wood. I will survive the apocalypse and earned the right to call myself adult. Wicked!
There are mistakes and mistakes
It’s days like these that I take a step back and look at my husband with a newfound pride and respect. (not that he’s leaving me alone with a broken boiler…). He works as an emergency operator providing care and help, where a misstake can mean the end for someone. As a paper rat a misstakes might lead to (and…
Father’s day
Today it is father’s day in Sweden. My father has always worked a lot, but had his base for his business from home, so I don’t think there were many days I did’t see him. I can still remember sitting lap singing our own little chant about me. Getting a good life for him and…
To know what you want and get it
Personally I am all for goal setting and delivering. I’m also very aware that I as a person many times am perceived as very selfish for the fact that I set my goals after what I want. On the other hand in my quest to fulfill them I do not play foul or I hurt people (at…
A trip to Denmark
Out of the blue the Mr said: “Ah, the heck with it, let’s go to Copenhagen!”. So we did. An overnight stay with animals, art, design and shopping. With the best boys around.
Three years ago
Today we had breakfast at Appelbee’s (Fabian consuming a mountain of pancakes) and afterwards turning to the Top of the Rock, tying the knot and becoming Mr & Mrs Dock. I remember the day as it was yesterday, partly because photographer Pontus Höök documented it all. We’ve been together since 1993. Loving, laughing and at…
Life in the fast lane
As self employed I do not whine about lot’s of work. But in the project I am in right now we are close to deadlines and a lot is to be done. But it is fun. I arrive in the morning and leave in the afternoon and I don’t have a clue where the day went….
Find those people
As a freelance and consultant I do not expect to get praise. I get paid ;). My raison d’etre is to be used where needed, because of my skills (and persona). But, since I started my own business I’ve received so much more positive feedback based on my deliverables. It could be so, that I perform better now,…
Perspective
Last night, when I lay down in my medium hard bed, with my “medium to warm” duvet, my head was filled with the images from the shores of Turkey, the central station in Budapest, the boarders of Syria and the young children caring for their infant siblings. Somewhere among the pictures of men and women, holding…
No, I will not
I will not find your taekwondo dobok when you realize you need it. 10 min prior to practise. It was not I who wore it at last practise and it is not me who has been home since 2.00 pm doing what ever else but looking for it. Sorry, that is just the kind of…
We’re building a home
For those of you who like to practise your Swedish or feel confident that Google translate will be able to make sense of it, visit my new blog: http://www.attbyggaetthem.wordpress.com to follow our journey to move to a new place and build our new home. Welcome!
A blue day
Today, due to technical issues, I couldn’t work. It became a blue day, in the best way. I went with my boys to Hallandsväderö, a small island and nature reserve. We walked the trails, found piece of the island where only we were and all we did was just being there, together. It was a…
The wonderful task of doing absolutely nothing
I am doer. I dream and plan things and then I do them. And one thing I do best is nothing. I do not have a problem to spend a day or two doing absolutely nothing. Yesterday was one of those days and I think this one will be the same.
A day in the sun
If the summer would getting grades, it would fail miserably this year. Until today (or two days prior if we are to be precize). We, however, haven’t gotten the chance to enjoy it, until today. The was spent with friends. First at the local pool and the kids were more in the pool than out…
Soccer & The Minions
Nine years ago I was in this very minute in labour. I wonder if it was now I, somewhat angry, said I didn’t care anymore. That I was about to go home. It was a great labour. Where I decided to work with my body. After 3,5 hrs at the hospital he was out. Our second star….
When time is not enough
Sometimes time can never be enough. Like when you meet a friend and you have so much to talk about. And you realize that it wouldn’t matter if you had more time. It simply wouldn’t be enough to empty the things that need to be ventilated. All the things from kids, friendship to career. Or…
Redundant
I remember the times when all I asked for was 10 minutes by myself. Preferably doing something fun and semi-rewarding but I’d settle for alone-time in the bathroom. But not even that was possible. I also remembered the time when both of the kids where off on playdates and I got so much free time…
Summer is here
The Swedish of all Swedish things. Probably more Swedish than Midsummer is end of term (skolavslutning). I don’t think I am more proud to be Swedish than at this specific time. New for this year is that our school had the ceremony on the evening rather than the morning. It was perfect. The sun came…
The question
The most common question I get nowadays is if I like being “on my own” aka self-employed. And the answer to it is yes. Yes, and nothing but yes, at least for now. I have during my 1.5 years as self-employed noticed a change in behaviour when you move from role to a needed skill. When you…
Another mother’s day
Very few have missed that my sons are my everything. The inspire me. They make me laugh and they are one of the reasons why I am happy. To share their successes and adversities creates an additional dimension of life. One that is not even possible to compare to anything else. Last night Sam was…
Mother’s day
The scent of the Lillies of the valley standing on the kitchen table reach my anosmia and reminds me that they summer together with the last day of school IS here (even if the whether tells me differently). Yesterday (Swedish Mother’s day) was spent at my childhood home (most probably for the last time) as my…
To Russia with love
As Pride is going on in Russia at the moment, let’s listen to this tune made by my former colleague. To Russia, and anyone else who has “a problem” with same sex relations.
What to do
Somtimes I just want to hug my children and tell them that everything is going to be all right. So that is exactly what I do. #theonlywayicanbeaparent
Leadership
I got the best grade from our 12-year old the other day. We were to mention three characteristics about each-other. He said (about me): Happy, loves her family (can be an adjective in Swedish) and… proper. Happy, yes that’s what everybody says, no surprise there. Proper, apparently I’m fooling someone ;). But “loves her family” – dang. Straight…
Nature and memories
I had to go back to my parents for another round of cleaning out of old stuff (so much crap one saves…). Instead of keeping it all I chose to take som pics. Driving to my parents I also got flabbergasted over nature’s brilliance. To be honest I must have grown up at one of…
Greatful
I don’t think there is anything greater than being greatful. The sense when you are truly thankful for not only what life has given you, but also who you handled it. For let’s be honest. I don’t think there is anyone going through life with no cares or bothers in the world. We all have…
Photography
Photography does wonders for my soul. I forget everything when I take pics. And how I love to use nature for my palette. Wonder why I do not do it more often. On my second instagram account, @signed_louise I focus more on photography as a creative expression and not so mucg as a visionary diary. There…
Finally
My Instagram feed is back in my sidebar. Thanks God! Wanna follow? Add @louisedock on Instagram
This spring’s favourite
This is what I play over and over again in the car going to my customers. The longer commute the better.
Freckles and giggles
The spring sun has left traces on your nose and your voice, when asking if you can go with a friend home after school, is so full of giggles it all needs to come out. Thank you for being you. My love for you and your brother meets no end.
Trying to convince myself
I know that the best thing I can do is to just go with it, there is not much/anything I can do. And that is killing me right now. To know what I want, to have it at an arms length, but still way out of reach and foremost out of my control. Trying to…
Wannabes who don’t wannado
Are you one of those who like to be seen and heard but not really accomplish so much? I Sweden we name this (in a straight forward translation) “a lot of talking but very little mechanics”…? Then you and I are most probably not compatible. I love visionary people and it is more than OK to not do…
Sun
I love the sun. It doesn’t need to be ridiculously warm, but sun helps. Today is such a day. Time to enjoy it, with a cup of coffee. Ahhhh.
An ordinary life
I belong to what people would call “the commoners”. I am not famous (not notorious either for that matter). I don’t have famous friends. I don’t have loads of money that can take me all the places I want to go (this I would like to have, not so much the money as being able to…
So damn proud
I am so damn proud over both my sons. They are spectacular even if not flawless. Anyhow, yesterday I needed moral support to get my butt out running. I asked for support and after some persuasion I got Sam to join me. So we ran, together in the spring sun. Sam running, talking. Me running,…
I’m a planner
I get happy when I plan stuff. Probably makes me a person of control. I get really excited and happy when I plan stuff around food. Not because I love it so much, more the opposite. I hate cooking and have realized that with some good planning the process goes so much smoother. So, now I have…
Two things
Have you read this brilliant post? Do and then return and read my post, which indirectly has nothing to do with the post more with the comments (or one of them). Brilliant text right? I have promissed myself to never have a bad conscience for “not have anything to wear” (I do of course, but…
The sound of pride
I know what pride sounds like. It is dogfood poured into a bowl. This means that your oldest takes responsibility for the family pet while his parents still are laying in bed. #everythingwillturnoutjustfine
Louise Dock 