Noooooooooo

Not a good sign. We are getting sloppy. Not regarding the cleaning, we have been sloppy about that for years. Our anniversary! How could we miss it?! More staggeringly, how could I miss it?! Last Wednesday, 21 years and not a card, no anniversary wishes. Probaby a kiss or two and a squeeze on the…

Ahhhh Sunday

After a effective day (OK hours) in the garden I took the boys to the beach, while the Mr went to sleep for his nightshift. Oh, what a day it was. I had my first dip in the ocean. We ate Sam’s home made mudcake, drank elderberry juice (also homemade), played Uno, read aloud, built…

Once upon a time

Once upon a time there was this boy. A hearty, intelligent, creative and happy boy. He was very keen on following rules and making right, always putting excellence as his goal. One of the last days of the semester of his fourth school year he went to school as usual but forgot one very important thing….

Following your heart

It is cool when you can witness someone else’s happiness in real time. Like yesterday when Sam was on his Taekwondo green belt grading. He didn’t pass, his selfdefense needed some more practice. But if you could see the pure joy in his eyes when they were to sparr with a “red-belt guy”. Gee, he really…

Signs

Today, I have seen many signs that I am on the right track to my happiness. A while back a young girl got kidnapped, raped, partly cut in her face and lower abdomen, beaten half to death and left on a field to die by an ex boyfriend. She got her future ripped in pieces. Her dream and…

Good day

Today I am grateful for our children. They are really good at taking responsibility for themselves when they need to. Today I also got a compliment for my outfit (which NEVER happens for several reasons) from our oldest. The younger one was giving us a private concert when he listen to “Love me, love me”…

The power of development

Change is often foreseen as scary. The usual assessment is: change brought by others are is more scary then the one you inflict by your self. But I wonder. How many times have we not ducked when a chance of change have knocked on the door and we have let it pass with a number of “well-thought” arguments. When you…

40 is the new 20, party people and gratitude

I will share some pictures from a surprise birthday party we went to yesterday. What an honor for us, what a surprise for the birthday child and what a day, evening, night and morning it was. The scenery could not be much better, the party was set at the beautiful Tosterup castle, the weather was…

Today I feel…

… like this (for the big 4 0) is not totally off the charts. Happy week-end all.

Friends

What makes a person a friend? The last days I have reflected over my friends. Why are a handful of people extremely valuable for me? It is so simpel, they are people like me who a pretty fine with who they are. They are people with dreams. Dreams and aspirations, but who choose not only lock…

This happy stuff

Currently I am failing miserably at this “happy” thing. I do have short highs, but something brings me down all too fast. This is nothing new. This is how life (mine) is and one gotta continue to live. Personally I need to find some new truths and adjust my world to something that it clearly…

Thank you

I am feeling truly grateful that I have a mind of a Teflon frying pan. Nothing sticks to me, for long. I can get gruesomely angry and upset (as you saw in my last post), but then it is gone and I focus on the the good parts in life, like when you play Uno…

You live, you learn

Not in a million years I thought I have friends and aquintances with a weak intelligence. And I don’t. But apparently there are aquintances to these friends and acquaintances who have. Who fabricate new truths with parts of it and have the audacity to spread their version as the truth. Without any interest to check if…

At the top while at the bottom

Even if the header is slight exaggeration of my current status I can not find a better way to describe the man-cold that currently has taken hostage over my body. But even if I am close to death, I joined the rest of the family for a walk in the forrest today. And it was…

Today’s words

I’ll keep it short today. This is how I feel. Darn good song to. Once again, the heck with Jante

Compliment

It is so little that does it for me. Just a few, polite words from a stranger. Who not only like my way of writing (from reading this chronicle, only in Swedish I am afraid) but who also respected me and complimented me on my way of living (and this guy knew what he was…

To change or not

“It is not the strongest or the most intelligent who will survive but those who can best manage change.”  ― Charles Darwin I read his quote on a restroom wall in Lisbon, Portugal once and since then it really stuck to me. In my strive for personal happiness I live by it (even if I, at times, am…

This thing called parenting

It is not easy to be a parent. Just as little easy it is to be a kid with parents. During my 11 years of motherhood I have developed and improved my ways. From a totalitarian to more a more coaching approach. And I do find it more intressant, more rewarding yes, better with my “new”…

Cool

I’m watching our youngest at swimming school and I just realized that both sons can crawl. I guess I am impressed as I have never learnt fully myself.

Just some pics

Took the dog to the beach for a walk the other day. It was a great spring day.

Goals

Sittning in the couch with our two offsprings watching Madagaskar II. The Mr is off on his soccer team’s training camp in Denmark. This morning I had four goals: 1. Mow the lawn 2. Turn the soil in the garden land 3. Take out the bbq for the season’s first bbq. 4. Fixing the trampoline…

Time stopped

“Has time stopped?” this was F’s first question waking up this morning. “When I look out the window, it feels like time has stopped.” I joined him in his observation and endeed it did. Deep thoughts of an eight year old at 06.55 a Friday morning. Deep thoughts of anyone at 06.55 any morning. Now…

Mothers and mums

Today it is my mum’s birthday. My beloved mother, who I once, at 13, called “bit**” to her face. I only did it that one time and if looks could kill… I would not be here to write this post. My mum is as far from a “bitch” one can come. She is there, always….

Fathers and dads

Saturday, a second cousin to my children made a speech to her father turning 50. She’d realized that many her friends were quite angry with their fathers as they had never been part their life. She had the best dad and she celebrated him for being that. I also have the best dad, a man…

Knackered

The Mr and I have the new year’s resolution to be more sociable. So after a slow start we now now went all in this week-end. Friday-Sunday party all night long. Thank God it is Monday so I get into the right tracks again.

Trust

Trust is the ultimate sign of love. I am thankful that I am trusted.

Food for the soul

This morning I did something that is the essence for me having my own business. I played hooky. The best thing to have your own business is not the millions you make (yeah right). It is the possibility to decide for your self. Sure, many of us have (had) quite flexible jobs that allows us…

To be mean

I can never really fully understand it. That there are people in this galaxy who want to be mean. No, I am not talking about children, I am talking about grown-ups who in social media and IRL (but much less often, because that is too scarry) say things just to hurt others. There is nothing…

This calls for Irene

So the first time (well, almost) since October I have been running. It was OK, I will be sore tomorrow, but right now it feels darn good. My running coach keeps telling me to remember this feeling, I never do and complain every time I am about to go out. But, afterwards, it is a…

Have you always been this cool?

I was actually asked this question last Saturday. The inquiring person were slightly influenced of  wine (like that would have mattered). As I also was slightly under the influence, my first response was a smart ass “Of course (or similar, I can not really remember, but a cocky reply it was). The reply was followed by…

Morning walk

Happiness comes in different forms and sizes for us all. For me it came this morning, with a late start, bit of sun and a walk with my darlings.

Time

Time is a funny, but usually good, thing. For me, today time provides me with the opportunity to skip the new LEGO movie over a cup of coffee and an episode of Suits. Nice!

Dreams

To reach your dreams you constantly need to go outside your comfort zone. Constantly. I know when I need to. I get a gut feeling. This gut feeling is very similar to my bad conscience gut, but I have learnt to tell them apart. The gut feeling that tells me that I am taking the…

Two birds with one stone

A lot of people applaud me for being brave when I quite my permanent job to go for my own business. I tell them that it had nothing to do with bravery. It had nothing to do with bravery for the simple reason that I was not afraid. But today I have done two brave…

Younger peeps

There are few things I see as more interesting and giving than to have the respect and confidence of a teen. To be handed the possibility to be a sounding board to a teenager’s honest thoughts and feelings must be absolutely brilliant. One must feel like Yoda. Like a bottomless well of wisdom. The tricky…

Started

In a previous post I mentioned that I/we need to get started to get going to where we want to be. So today I did. With extreme fast and unexpected results. Exciting – yes. Scary – definitely. But at least we are on our way.

Flawless

I wouldn’t say that I am beauty pageant (thank God) material, but I  do have the best skin ever. No acne – ever, very little wrinkles etc etc. Dermatologists and beauticians often congratulate me to my fantastic, flawless, porcelain skin. My skin is is great, except on an early Monday morning in mid February, when…

Good

I feel good. Just saying, I feel good. And just by being me.

Rush hour Skottorp

Once in while the freeway traffic between Sweden’s second and third largest cities gets re-directed via our village. This morning is such a day. Most probably caused by an accident or snowdrifts making the freeway too insecure to drive on. It’s days like this, when it becomes imperative to me that I need something more…

All these ladies

Yesterday I stayed up till 03.30 am (we are actually talking about this morning). That it self in an accomplishment. Not frequently occurring. Before that I ate (different oriental dishes) , I drank (wine and water), I danced, I laughed, I cried and I celebrated (the victory of my team’s music quiz especially). This I…

Just an ordinary Thursday

I have asked some friends and former colleagues for some feedback as I am taking this development class. And how lucky I am to not only have friends but to have the most intelligent ones. Yes, all the positive things are great to hear (but nothing really new 😉 ), but what I truly appreciate…

Light

There are advantages by living in the northern parts of the northern hemisphere. You get really good at appreciate light. After (about) midsummer (end June) and until mid/end December we are getting less of it. And yes, in the really far north there is no light at all for a short time (but that is…

Good things

I am convinced that good things come to those who work their butt off. And are nice. Apparently a tricky combination at times.

Ahhh Friday

This Friday I for the first time in my life fully understand and personally experience the fact that when you say no to certain things, you do say yes to other. Let’s celebrate

By golly

Sometime, like right now, I get so impressed by my brain. It is just so super! Do you get impressed? By yours I mean.

Me, Louise

I am so happy that I, for the time being, have figured out who I am, where I want to go and started walking. It has required me to be honest and tough towards myself, a lot of work at least for my mind. It has also meant that I needed to let go of…

Right here, right now

Sitting in my favourite armchair. A new book (well for me…), a cup of coffee, the afternoon sun sipping through the window and the rest of the family up to theirs. I am complete. There is nothing more I need. Happy happiness.

Gratitude

Yesterdays visits with friends left me with an even stronger sense to actively acknowledge gratitude. I really have nothing to complain about. Nothing, nothing at all. Besides our general health, yesterday left me grateful for; To have  friends around me that challenge and allow me to challenge. GREAT ideas Both boys had a good first…

Happy Wednesday

Today I am happy for the fact that I will meet some friends. Friends make me happy. And coffee to. I’ll start with some coffee.