I have, for some time, had the idea of making a a7 giftcard with the family on it. A personal way to accompany a (maybe) not so personal gift. I thought I would put my photographical skills to it, but it seems like I have had a hard time to get myself into that picture. So…
Category: Happiness
Unfair?
When sharing one’s emotions like I do, out in the open, with no filter more than a half hearted proofreading (usually after publishing), there’s a risk that people misunderstand and, God forbid, judge, not me, but the ones I’m writing about. I realize that my children as well as my husband, who over the years have…
Grey January
Took the boys and my camera for a spin. January is currently very grey and not much light to work with, which is both good and bad.
Expectation management
In communication and especially in change communication, the most important thing to manage, is expectations. This is the fine act of balancing marketing and selling hypes with reality. In parenting this doesn’t happen too often. Simply because there is no one responsible but yourself for the change to come and as human beings we tend…
Stating the obvious
I read my Facebook feed, this last day of 2016. People concluding the year that passed. Wiser and filled with hope and energy for the year to come. Consciousness is good and hard. Because once seen, it doesn’t allow you to look away, without a really uncomfortable notion in your belly. At the same time,…
Supernova
It’s a challenge, this life thing. Especially if you, as myself, demand progress. Particularly of myself. I love myself, but not so much that I don’t think there’s room for improvement. These areas of improvement are getting very clear as the kids develop. Great catalysts they are. The children. Love ’em for it even if I for sure…
My best friend
She has blond and hopeless (i.e super thin) Scandinavian hair, quite tall, weighs according to WHO probably a few kilos too much. She’s passionate and too often too loud. She listens when I talk, she gives the best advice and she spars when I need perspective. Sometimes she tells me to stop whining and get…
Why me so happy?
Because I chose to be. Yes, it might sound harsh, not especially humble and too simplified, but I really truly believe it is the truth. Happy as in how I approach life. Not happy as I go around everyday laughing (but I do laugh at least once a day. With my husband, my kids, they are…
19+4 and counting
So we were late to it. After a little over 19 years together and two kids born in sin, we tied the knot 4 years ago. It was just the two of us and the two wonders we made. Just like we wanted it. Swedish New York based photographer Pontus Höök captured our day and…
Simplicity
To get an extra day of home office is apparently all I need. To be able to take the dog for a proper walk after the sun rises. A cup of my own coffee at the desk. Simple things that makes life so much worth living. I really need to get my life back on track….
Not cut out for this shit
Kids, should I really have had them. Not because they are not spectacular. One (two) of a kind. The best. My everythings. But because I am not cut out for it. In periods I worry too much, far too much what is good for you (and most probably them, not that I tell them all)….
Happiness can also be…
… when the same teenager comes home from youth club only because he remembers his practice. And ALL by him self (or at least without parental guidance). Maybe that brain of his is more than just looks….
Progress
Since September I’m back with my FABULOUS PT Jessica. I missed both her and what the result of her rehab (shoulder that’s been bothering me for years) and training did to me, my body and my mind. When I started this spring I got totally silent after say 15 minutes into the session. After that…
What a way to start your day
This morning I was love bombed. What a best way to start your day. Two friends, independently of one another, “Instagramed” and Facedbooked the nicest things about me. And just because I am who I am. One can’t have a bad day after that. Thanks to them for sharing and thanks to me for being me. View…
Happiness is…
…when the teenager comes home after practice for a late supper and BY HIM SELF puts the leftovers in a container and place them in the fridge. There can be peace on earth one day too.
Memories & good choices
This little fellow showed up in my Facebook memories. 5 years ago. Oh, I cherish the fact that I worked 80% and gave a full Friday for 5 years or so to my princes. Fabian and I had a tradition of a weekly fika at a café of our choice. A 30 min or so only for…
Epiphanies
Is it even possible? As a non believer or/and practitioner of any of the major (or minor for that matter) religious groups to be part of an epiphany? Of course it is, I just had one, a major one. Epiphanies of my own beliefs and new possible ways to look and improve myself. Listening to…
Slowly but surely
We are in the end of July. Summer has been present, at least during the last days. Slowly but surely does reality start kicking in. The Mr started to work again beginning July and I’m taking the possibility sporadic days and half days off. Kids has about three more weeks of summerbreak. But this week…
T – 7
It is near now. In seven days we will move, hopefully to our new house, but for sure we will move. We will have somethings to finish after moving in, like garden, patio and garage. But we will take it in due time. We went through the house with a representative with the builder (Mjöbäcksvillan)…
Happy Mother’s day – to me
It’s almost 13 years ago I became a mother. Kids have always been part of my “life plan”, but I never felt that strong conviction in my soul that I must become a mother – until the day I actually became one. From that day, they have been the most important beings in my life….
Damn it
The truths of all truths. The freaking power of now. My friend (she who taught me to eat eggs and omelett) said that I must read Eckhart Tolle‘s book “The power of now“. A book she found provoking but still could understand if not practically so at theoretically level and could understand its thesis. I haven’t…
Path to happiness
There are several paths to happiness. One is through food and at lunchtime it’s called omelett. OMG! Soon 42 years old and I haven’t gotten it until now. I have always, since I was a child hated eggs. I watched with fascination my father eating his boiled breakfast egg. He beheaded it with his butter knife and it…
Thank you internet
Things usually doesn’t disappear by themselves unless you are watching a magician doing his (her) tricks. But today (or at least sometimes during the last week), so help me Lord, a file disappeared from my computer. A very important file. I am 100% positive that I didn’t throw it away. It was too important to accidentally…
Kickus maximus in gluteus maximus
That is what I received today. A big ass ass kick. To get going, to dare to break barriers and old habits. It is so hard and I do question if I need to, while I in parallell know that if I don’t, I just use fears and laziness to become scapegoats to what I really want from…
Wonderful
There are several reasons to complain at times. Times when life is just not what one deserves or expect. And there are days when you can take a step back and just realize that it could be so much worse. Tonight it was one of those days. Even if the boys were reluctant we made it….
In every teacher…
… is an aspiring actor. The other day I went to Fabian’s after-school activity. In Sweden all children with working parents have the right to attend “after-school activities (often/always? provided by the school/municipality) till they are 12 (thereafter they are considered to be old enough to care for them self). Anyway, parents were invited and…
Screw you Mercury
Apparently Mercury is in retrograde. I’m not a firm believer in astrology more than Libras are the kick-ass zodiac sign (smart, charming, lovable etc. etc.) nor do I fully understand what it means, but it ain’t good. But on the other hand it explains a lot and things will turn (for the better) and until…
When happiness doesn’t show
I have written about it before. This happiness shit. And I am one of them who claims that happiness is good for you, that it is something to strive towards and live in, at least it is for me. My happiness is always based in my own needs. And never, at least not consciously, measured with…
I swear
If I ever get unemployed or like now, low in paying assignments I will have NO, I repeat, NO problem have my days going. I could, for instance, watch this episode from Ellen Degeneres’ over and over again. Hilarious. I laugh so hard I cry. And there are other scares to watch. Come laugh with…
New beginnings
Hmmm, one always says (one as a general, vague and unidentified person) it is hard to find new friends as you get old(er). What a load of bullshit. I’m just realizing that I have, in a very short time, found some new friends. Smart, open, women. Ready to give and ready to be around. That’s freaking amazing….
The best thing ever
Is of course my husband and kiddos. But shortly behind family comes, at the moment, Jessica. Jessica is a (my) personal trainer who (can) comes to your home and make you train. If/When necessary she could probably pull you by your hair from the couch (no extra charge). For two years I’ve been a blob. I just…
I am…
… the happiest woman alive. I am going through the videos on my YouTube channel and realize that I am truly blessed. I have a good life and if I wouldn’t understand and cherish it I should be burnt on the Walpurgis Night bonfire, like any common witch of 17th century.
Happiness could also be…
… when you sleep in late after party with friends and get greated by this Bacon and pancake breakfast provided by your youngest. Whoever he partner’s up with will be a very happy camper. Love him to the moon and back ❤️
Happiness is…
…to manage to get four tickets to a already fully booked stand-up comedy show with Sweden’s best comedians. I promised friends and the Mr to be ready to book tickets as soon as they were released. What I didn’t think of, was the fact that I was in a meeting when this happened and then in another…
The second cup of coffee
The second cup of coffee during breakfast, when the kids are off to school, when the house is complete silent. That’s the best one. A slow start today. The ones I need from time to time, just to remember what life really is about.
Practise makes perfection
During the last days Fabian has, with the help of his best friend, been practicing a forward flip on the trampoline with the goal to be able to land on his feet. Today, was the day he made it. Over and over again. Happiness, friendship. Boom!
Love
In the processes of moving you find stuff. Stuff you didn’t know you had, but when finding them you are very happy that you did. Like this one. Mum, dad and Sam at his second birthday. Love is everywhere.
Happiness
Sometimes happiness shows up when you least expect it. Like coming home from AW and dinner with great friends and your children have had a great day. (It could’ve been better if the husband hadn’t been working, but on the other hand having a job can also bring happiness). I almost felt like Tom:
So damn good
Friday afternoon. Sun’s shining, boys are out playing soccer, I have been to the store and gotten the groceries for dinner. Wine has been purchased. Service dude from Whirlpool came and we can finally start filling the dishwasher and get clean stuff out it. Good day. Welcome weekend.
Mornings
After the rather loathed “waking up” part, which is a long and tiresome part in my life, I love mornings. Love the speed (i.e. no speed) the breakfast, morning news and the coffee. Wish all my days could be mornings.
The amazing feeling of being debt free
To pay our bills and become debt free, is such as tremendous good feeling for me. There are some extra expenses now with the new house (or in the process of getting our new house). But now they to are paid and now I am ready to rock and roll again, i.e modest shopping, but…
Final episode
So, what are my last favorite songs that I want to share, that have been (are) important to me. I’ll end with two. Both will be played at my funeral. Fame, remember the TV-show? I wanted to be Coco. I just LOVE Irene Cara’s lead song and I do believe there is a hidden statement in it…
As the kids get older
As the kids grow older you can enjoy stuff with them. Sam and I watched this, we both laughed so hard we were crying.
Me and my boyz
Winter break. What to do? I’m pretty good at doin’ nothing at all. But sometimes one just need to get a grip and do. Currently my schedule is not 100% full and I decided to take a day off. Packed my darlings onto the train and left for Gothenburg. Off to Universeum and some biology,…
Favorites eps. 4
Back from the States, I was a young adult with life a ahead of me. Party was my middle name, but just during the weekends… We took turns driving to the cities were the clubs were (or not the first 6 months because Helena was the only one with a drivers license) and danced, laughed and…
Happy
I look at this picture and get so happy. My great little family. Thankful.
Here they are
2/3 of my boys in da making. The boys father (both boys in case your were wondering-apparently some do…) is the best dad. As all parents (including myself even if they a minimum…) he has his flaws, but he is available. He won’t teach them how to build things, or fix cars but how to…
It is simple
It is pretty simple. You like each other and you become friends. But friendship can change. There is no guarantee that one like one another after 25 years. Bring two husbands and four children into the pictures and there is a lot that doesn’t necessarily add up. Or it just does. Or maybe it is…
Louise Dock 