Limitless

Lately I’ve been thinking a lot of limitlessness (? is that even a word? Well it is now). My previously post was for sure connected to it. Social media – a place where you can say what ever you want, no matter how foul, how hateful or how much it will hurt. Limitless. And I…

Freedom

I was asked by a high-school student to be interviewed about motivation. The first question was – what makes you motivated? And it got me thinking, what is it that get’s me motivated. I came to the conclusion that for me it is freedom. Freedom to have right do what I want. Naturally we can…

Season’s over

Today Fabian and his team played their last game for this season. A win. It’s been a tough and educational season as they played the top league. Now training continues as it does until Christmas comes. You gotta love football.

How I wish…

… I was a manson (gender neutral word for a person that could be any person but most likely is a man). Then I could walk around life with no idea of anything not directly connected to my own (as in me) life. Things around the kids (birthdays, friends, shoe size, schedules etc etc) or…

Great weekend coming up

Tomorrow’s my birthday! I love birthdays. Hopefully it will be better than the one three years ago… Besides the birthday, which will be calm. I have one movie visit “Mrs Harris goes to Paris”, one football game and a visit to the not so local real Italian pizzeria with real Napolitalian pizza. No, I don’t…

“Your mind had understood, but your heart hasn’t”

It was a colleague who said those words to me last week. I expressed my feelings of seeing my last boy being in his high for his independence. With Sam it was easier, maybe because of the fact that I still had another one coming. It was so I almost didn’t notice it. But now….

PMS

A question for the ladies. Do you get more evil than usual closer to your period? I don’t mean angry and irritated. I mean mean. Mean as in: “I really couldn’t care less if tears are brought to your eyes by my comments, I actually want you to be hurt you large pile of excrement….

New beginnings

This morning was epic. For our family. Or for my husband. After 22.5 years as an emergency response operator (20.5 at his current company) the Mr worked his last shift. A nightshift. During the kids whole life, they have been told to “keep it down” because dad’s sleeping. Had a mother who didn’t do much…

Old

Have I mentioned how old I’m getting? I know, that I over and over again mention that life is going too fast when things happen to the boys. But I never see the connection to me getting old. BUT what’s leading me on to understanding that I am getting old are all those things that…

Life reminding itself

You need them. Once in a while you need that inexorably punch in your stomach. A punch that shakes you to your core. A blow that makes an average Friday night important and reminds you that all your days are the most important you have. Because they are your life. I was aimlessly scrolling my…

The Friendship Inn

Last week it was Gothia Cup, the largest football youth cup. Fabbe’s team was there. His first time. As the mother I am, and can be. I took my work computer and camera and logged in at The Friendship Inn. Once again my childhood friend opened her doors for me and lend me a bed….

Perspectives of time

I’m conscious about time. In the bigger perspective. To stop daily and reflect over things (usually my children and/or feelings connected to everyday activities). This gives me an awareness of now. A now that tomorrow is part of the past. It gives me knowledge that I was present while alive. I believe this will grant…

Paris report – Day #2

Today we went in the opposite direction – towards Champs-Élysées. The mission was the same. Find a good deal. If the findings were, I’m not the one to tell. But I understood that the PSG jersey was. Even-though it is last season’s model (and most possibly therefore it was a bargain). I feel unbelievable blessed…

Paris report – Day #1

I must say Fabian is somewhat modest when his uses the word “good” in his review of the day. At one time he was saying that his mind was spinning of the huge supply especially as it’s combined with a sale to up to 50%! We stated our day at Galeries Lafayette Haussmann. From there…

Review Skiathos

It started with poor imagination. The Mr wanted to go abroad during his vacation. No discussion. I never have that need. Or possibly I never need to, as my husband always wins that race. I understand him though. Living in Sweden and having an early vacation in June – you never know what weather you’ll…

Mamma Mia

What a week we have had. The Mr and I who on Tuesday last week took a well deserved “post graduation”break and went to Skiathos, Greece for a week. I will tell you more in another post. But of my three trips to Greece, this was the best. Maybe it was the company, the food…

Graduation

So, it’s done. Graduation. We got to have a wonderful day for our Sam. Thanks to all our friends and family. Now high schools over and now he only needs to study if he wants to. Monday – work starts – an assistant nurse ready to care for you. His mum’s going to rest her…

What happened

Today Sam came home with his graduation cap. I can’t comprehend this. Our oldest is done with school. He’s officially a real adult and we don’t need to care for him. Naturally I teared up. I’m so not ready for this and I force myself to remind myself what his daycare teacher Helene told me,…

Have faith

Yesterday there was a party for our young adult. 15 friends showed up (they were invited). Young adults, mainly of the male gender. What a great bunch! When the party was over the last ones standing both initiated and handed the cleaning – the house was almost in a better shape after than when they…

Sam our man ❤️

He had us waiting. Not for long, but we first had some else cooking for May 2003, but “thankfully” that unborn was lost. But then he came. He was planned for 2 January 2004, but thanks to being a breech baby, we got a planned c-section and then – to meet my wish of not…

Windy walk

There are better ways to start a Sunday than driving your youngest to the soccer gathering at 06.20. But of course it’s worth it when you feel the energy through the loud music playing in the car. But there are not many better ways to spend Sunday lunch than with the Mr and friends at…

Sittning here

Here I am, sitting and feeling ridiculously blessed. Blessed for all the birthday wishes sent to me. Especially of the friends taking 5 (!) minutes of their time and giving me a phone call ❤️. But especially for my precious PRECIOUS family. The wonderful husband and two equally magical sons. Picking out personal gifts hitting…

Tired of people

I woke up at 2 a.m thinking of a “problem” connected to my assignment. And as we all know, it’s stupid, stupid, stupid of people to start thinking of any problem (professional or personal) at this hour. It’s stupid out of two reasons: 1. You’re not getting paid for it (especially not if it’s a…

When things don’t turn out

Sometimes things don’t turn out as you think. But then you can bake. With your son. When done you enjoy your fika.

Sit down in the boat

Sometimes the only thing one needs to do, is nothing and things will just solve themselves. Yesterday I had my first day back in (home) office. Wednesday I spent in bed. With a sore throat and generally feeling blah. While doing so, Christmas danced out as we spoke about the other day. Apparently my tinsel…

Not cut out for this shit

Kids, should I really have had them. Not because they are not spectacular. One (two) of a kind. The best. My everythings. But because I am not cut out for it. In periods I worry too much, far too much what is good for you (and most probably them, not that I tell them all)….

What a way to start your day

This morning I was love bombed. What a best way to start your day. Two friends, independently of one another, “Instagramed” and Facedbooked the nicest things about me. And just because I am who I am. One can’t have a bad day after that. Thanks to them for sharing and thanks to me for being me. View…

Slowly but surely

We are in the end of July. Summer has been present, at least during the last days. Slowly but surely does reality start kicking in. The Mr started to work again beginning July and I’m taking the possibility sporadic days and half days off. Kids has about three more weeks of summerbreak. But this week…

We R in

No news anymore, but for me, who uses this blog as a personal diary need to write it down for my own sake. When I’m old I will sit and enjoy all my posts and pics. And remember all the good and bad (but for sure a majority of good, because that is who I…

Happiness

Sometimes happiness shows up when you least expect it. Like coming home from AW and dinner with great friends and your children have had a great day. (It could’ve been better if the husband hadn’t been working, but on the other hand having a job can also bring happiness). I almost felt like Tom:

It is simple 

It is pretty simple. You like each other and you become friends. But friendship can change. There is no guarantee that one like one another after 25 years. Bring two husbands and four children into the pictures and there is a lot that doesn’t necessarily add up. Or it just does. Or maybe it is…

Zlatan is in da house

In our family we have entered a new era. The era of young boys smelling gooood. For Christmas and birthday our sons got things to make them smell favourably. And it sure smells. Walking into F’s room is like walking into a mist of early manhood. I do wonder if anything is actually sprayed on…

Tik tok

On Thursday he turns 9. 9? 9! I realize that it doesn’t matter where the time go. The important thing is what we do with it.

Greatful

I don’t think there is anything greater than being greatful. The sense when you are truly thankful for not only what life has given you, but also who you handled it. For let’s be honest. I don’t think there is anyone going through life with no cares or bothers in the world. We all have…

Sun

I love the sun. It doesn’t need to be ridiculously warm, but sun helps. Today is such a day. Time to enjoy it, with a cup of coffee. Ahhhh.  

Soul food

Laying next to someone, reading a book (or a Donald Duck magazine), sharing some thoughts, stroking  someone’s head, telling how important that person is, reminding them that you will always be around – if only a phone call away. That is what life is about. That is all I need to feel complete. 

Coming home

I went to a CSR meeting yesterday. CSR – Corporate Social Responsibility. It was like I found a word for what I, as a communicator always have been about. Transparency and balance. But what hasn’t been the focus of the corporate forces. For me it was like coming home.

Keep one in your pocket

l looked through (as I do from time to time) old blog posts and I found some pics from March 2010. And what do they tell you? To always, ALWAYS have an “almost four year old” close to you. When you do, you look at life in a brighter way.

What did I just say?

Earlier today I was in contact with an old colleague. We had a short chat about life. I remember mentioning something about children are not the end of ones life, they merrily adds on a dimension to life. Dimensions that I, right now, gladly, would skip for the dimensions brought by a Martini from a sky…

Just according to plan

Tomorrow, dear friends is my 40th birthday and today our youngest showed his first ever interest in the female gender. Just according to plan. “Like sands through the hourglass, so are the days of our lives.”

Family

Really, no more words are needed (and if someone wonders, the elderly peeps are my parents).  

It all ended well

Many people misunderstand my strive for happiness as me needing to be happy all the time – H.E.L.L N.O. I am probably the best (meaning highest) combo of all feelings. Sad, angry, happy, etc. etc. Today we (OK I) took a turn to the angry zone. Me and Sam had the worst quarrel since… I…

This happy stuff

Currently I am failing miserably at this “happy” thing. I do have short highs, but something brings me down all too fast. This is nothing new. This is how life (mine) is and one gotta continue to live. Personally I need to find some new truths and adjust my world to something that it clearly…

To change or not

“It is not the strongest or the most intelligent who will survive but those who can best manage change.”  ― Charles Darwin I read his quote on a restroom wall in Lisbon, Portugal once and since then it really stuck to me. In my strive for personal happiness I live by it (even if I, at times, am…

Every other

Nowadays the Mr’s and my lives are really overlapping. When I am at home, he is away and vice versa. When I fall a sleep on the couch he is awake and vice versa. The evil cause is soccer. And shift work. And starting your own business. I say it is temporarily. It better be….

What is WRONG with me?

The answer to the question might be “a lot of things”. The Mr and I have always, consciously or not, wanted our children to be independent and self going. As soon as the Mr took over the parental leave for the second son, we have been on the right track (Fabian was extremely cautious with…

Right here, right now

Sitting in my favourite armchair. A new book (well for me…), a cup of coffee, the afternoon sun sipping through the window and the rest of the family up to theirs. I am complete. There is nothing more I need. Happy happiness.

Sometimes

Sometimes. Not often, but sometimes I wish I’d chosen a different path in life. Do you think that as well? Or is it only me? Do you wonder where you had been if you only had/hadn’t. And do not get me the “you can always choose what life you want from now-on- crap”, because kids…

I am getting there

Life is a journey. I am on mine and step by step (my patient really get a good training here) its getting clearer for me. I look forward to this fall and winter and where it will take me. Life is as great as you make it.  

364

364 days ago I was a all jittery as we where off to NYC in a day… our great trip. With so many memories that we love to return to. Like this one or this.