I reacted again. Not with shock. Not even with anger. Just that familiar mix of irritation and fatigue. My first thought was: Again?! Really?! Not because this was the worst thing ever said. But because I’ve seen this pattern so many times it might as well come with a template. I’ve written before about freedom…
Category: Life in general
Different worlds
Sometimes when I look at LinkedIn, the only social media I have left, I get amazed and almost confused about where I exist and how I choose to do things. I seldom use the kind of language that seems to live there. The steady stream of excitement, the superlatives, the “thrilled to announce” moods. My…
Eudaimonia
It was Friday night when it happened. Samuel had taken on the cooking, and I sat by the kitchen island watching him. A text message informed him that the week-long bidding process for the flat had finally come to an end – the flat was his. We were thrilled for him, perhaps even a bit…
How We Will Survive
They day before we were leaving Quincy, it was the Mr’s birthday and we decided to celebrate the only way we know how: by hitting the town and seeing what Quincy had to offer. By pure accident, we stumbled upon The Drunk Brush – a wonderful little Italian bar run by Ricco from Naples (the…
Not every morning
But sometimes, quite often, I step out into our garden and pick a few flowers. I arrange them like my inner child florist (dream occupation at six) would have done. It’s a quiet moment. It’s time for contemplation.I think about my family, my dad, and my friends. The moment helps me start the day in…
Why Complaining Wastes Our Privilege
It’s 7:15 AM, and I’m already over it. Maybe it’s the lack of sleep, or perhaps it’s just my perimenopause brain firing on all cylinders, (due to the lack of sleep. I who slept like a baby with my HRT, or if it should be called PTE , but that is a separate post), but…
Do you know what I did?
No, no hobby worth mention has arrived at my doorstep. Meanwhile I spend my time… clearing and organising. It’s pathetic i know. To my defense I do enjoy it. I always have (believe it or not). Today I have organised our linen cabinet, planned our coming trip and before the day is over, I will…
I don’t know how to have fun
I feel like a five year old, saying “I have nothing to do!” I really don’t know what to do with the time I have . Without Fabian’s football I have no hobbies what so ever. And I’m afraid to sign up for something (like I’d know what it should be…) as it then would…
The time has come
Yesterday it was time. And never has Kahlil Gibran’s On Children, been more suitable. I don’t think I ever have hugged him as hard as I did at the airport yesterday. I don’t even remember telling him that I love him. On the other hand I have done so 7000 times before. But I told…
UK trip day 1 and 2
The Mr and I never went inter-railing in our youth. So when the Mr came with the idea to do it this summer I immediately got excited. But Europe is big. We never could decide where to go. Then the Mr came with brilliant idea to fly to Manchester and take the train home from…
And just like that
it’s over. Or really, for him, it’s a start of something new, something different, exiting and sometimes troublesome. But, its not the end. It’s the beginning. To watch your children graduate is special. Yesterday it was our youngest’s turn. Graduation is wired, as you remember your own. Regarding the weather- the gods were on our…
Prom
Time again. Last time was three years ago. Same venue different kid, different lady. Not much to talk about. I was worried about the weather. It turned out to be a great evening.
What am I doing?
I don’t know if it’s age (hormones) or what. But I still feel low. I don’t have energy to do… anything. My coaching period the other year showed me that I have so many ideas of things to do. But now, I just can’t be bothered. I read my coach’s Instagram and I see (again,…
What the fudge is happening?
I’m both thinking about my own life, as well at the world as such. It’s just a freaking madhouse all together. What can I do about it, except not freaking out and starting to be just as bad myself. So many thoughts going on in my head I don’t know what to think. Who am…
Confliction
My head and my heart is, currently, filled with conflicting thoughts and feelings. At the same time as I see the strangest and maybe the most evil things happening in our world, I cannot allow the dark thoughts and feelings prevail. It’s not possible, when I meet the world in the form of nature on…
Some more
Today I have maternity day. It’s all about Juni and Tesla. They are doing great. Tesla can be a little tough at times, but they will have so much fun these gals.
It’s June
Well, it’s March, but we have June (Juni as her Swedish name is, meaning June). We picked her up today ❤️. All since we said goodbye to Buddy in August last year, we’ve been thinking about it. Getting a second dog. I will not lie, the last time with Buddy required us to walk them…
Life
In the bigger perspective life is daunting right now. But here. In my backyard with spring weather, it’s grand. Absolute grand.
A Moment of Gratitude
While sitting by myself in the candle light by our dining table, playing tranquil Swedish Christmas songs, the dog sleeps peacefully on the sofa and the boys in their beds (the Mr is off to work). I reflect over how I feel in this very moment. Except for missing my dad (who loved Christmas) I…
An End of an Era
Motherhood, what a journey it is. Our trip to NYC made it so clear to me, that my boys are adults and “we” are now something new, something different, something I haven’t fully understood. I have always striven to get independent children. That’s why I have made sure that they can handle the basics of…
OMG I’m 50!
I had this really long post planned. But, I scrapped it. I just summarize that I’m happy. I miss my dad, but I’m happy. I have my family and my friends. I have my health (well, if it wasn’t for that knee/calf thing) roof over my head, money for food and splashes of humble luxuries….
Being clear
Clarity is important to me. In anything and everything. In fact it’s so important I find joy in creating it. I believe many will claim that it’s related to control, that I need control. Personally I’m not convinced. For me, it’s more about respect and integrity. Example, if you want me to do something for…
Slow mornings
I might have mentioned this before, but one of my key findings (as they say) after coaching was that I don’t want stressful mornings. I don’t, on a daily basis, want to be forced to be at a certain place at a certain time. That’s what’s important to me. And I’m grateful to not need…
The evanescence of axiom
Is it only me that feels like axiom is disappearing? Nothing is no longer true, one can justify anything with one’s personal belief. Is this a contributor to the VUCA-world and what will it mean for mankind and democracy? Especially when people in power more commonly use it to distort anything? What kind of disorder…
Blessed
I was listening to a “gossip” podcast on my morning walk with the dog this morning (note: I also listen to other podcast, like “intellectual ones” currently many about the US election). Anyhow, both the topic discussed and the way the host talked about things got me thinking. How utterly blessed I am. And I’m…
Stop it, just stop it now
No I’m not talking about the scolding happening at the other side of the pond. I’m talking about life. Tuesday our little one (who turned 18 little over a month ago and thereby is an adult in the eyes of society) got his driver’s license. In Sweden you don’t get to have a driver’s license…
The Best
Friends from kindergarten, middle, junior high and high school came together this weekend to celebrate our common friend turning 50! Me and friends turning 50 is great, even if I have a hard time comprehending this fact, we are so young. Over the years I’ve told about my best friend in the blog and I’…
More grief
2024 is not turning out to be my best year. Dad this winter, Buddy yesterday. He has been on our radar for some time. After all he was over 13 years. Over the last year we’ve seen an old man a slowly aging and with a disintegrating body. An arthritis which was subdued with medication,…
A mum’s love – part 463
Being a parent is the toughest job/assignment ever. Now with adult/semi-adult children it is not the sleepless nights I’m thinking about (that’s perimenopause) and it’s not the agonizing conversations explaining the most fundamental logic things to the “not the sharpest tool in the shed” teenager. No, for me the absolute toughest part of being a…
Voices from below
Even-though my father’s passing lies close to my heart and the grief stops by to visit at least once every day, I’m happy. Happy for the falsetto shout-outs from the living room downstairs where one son and his father enjoys (or not, judging by their voices) a football game together. Happy for them. Happy to…
Life and the end of it
Tuesday night my father passed away. That’s it. He was rushed in by ambulance one week prior, with a heart racing and a hard time breathing. The diagnosis: congestive heart failure and fluids in his lunges. Me and F visited him straight way and other than being tired he was him self. Made jokes with…
A good start
The old year ended and the good year has started well. We managed to stay healthy (feels like we are almost the only ones, Covid19, flu and colds march through humanity around us). We have altered sleeping in the sofa with work and I managed with in the first week of the year to go…
Hello 2024
So what will happen 2024? Naturally we don’t know, but I will start to think of my goals and intentions for the upcoming year. I have a number of professional projects that I want to launch and others I want to start. Books, prints, exhibitions, and trainings to mention some. Let’s see what will be…
Bye bye 2023 – act III
The final reflection for 2023 I do through the question: What did I learn about myself in terms of values, priorities, and passions? My values have been grounded since 15-20 years back (probably longer, even if I wasn’t aware of them). I have talked about them previously, and I keep them even if I (wise…
Bye Bye 2023 – act II
The next question I ask myself in my annual reflection is: How have I grown personally and professionally in the past year? Well, the coaching I had together with Linnea and her Happy Business earlier this year has made me grow in ways, and at a speed, that wouldn’t have been possible otherwise. I’m just…
Bye bye 2023 – act I
It’s getting closer, the end. The end of 2023. What better way to round it up than to do some reflections. My most significant achievements and accomplishments this year? Yes, I’m one of them. One who has written goals and to-do lists (of feel like it lists as I call it nowadays) both for professional…
Tribute to the ordinary
I started to think about how fantastic it is to be ordinary. A word so many seem to want to be as far away from as possible. Especially if/when it’s combined or put in context with our lives and self image. To be successful (in the eyes of others) today is equal to monetary fortune,…
Is it so
Me blogging has always been around me (surprise), me wanting to share things, inform about things and sometimes lifting topics for debate (or food for thought). But it’s always been around me. My life my kids, my feelings and my thoughts. In other words a catastrophy from a marketing and communication perspective. But from a…
Wanting more
For the Mr’s 50th birthday we were off to Edinburgh for a long weekend (Thursday-Monday). The four of us. A Scottish friend of mine advised us to stay in the city as we were only being there for 3,5 days. She was (naturally) right. So we have to come back for more of both the…
Breath in breath out
I don’t see my self as a hateful person, who act or wish malevolent upon others. But sometimes I get tired of people. I still not wish them mayhem. I wish they would just be quiet or at least reduce the self-pity, and self-assertion (which is a painful reminder of bad self-esteem) and while their…
How much money does one need?
I think the first time I reacted to it (not the first time I heard it) was when Avicii mentioned it (or something similar) in the documentary (True Stories?) about him. He expressed his view about money, meaning that money wasn’t important to him. And now Zlatan said something similar in his Piers “Shame pillow”…
Breaks
I must realize that breaks are important. I’m the master of efficiency. But I have fooled myself to think that it only comes with me sitting in front of a computer. When I allow myself to break free and take a break, usually a walk with the dogs so many good ideas and perspective land…
This “influencer” thing
Lately I’ve been thinking of this “influencer” thing. Previously, when you looked at people’s social media profile many used to say “influencer”. As it’s not a protected title many could/can do so. But today I see less of these titles and thank God for that. Let’s face it, their reputation is really tarnished and rightfully…
Unbelievable
EDIT: Just realized I started blogging 3 years prior. Started at another platform in end of 2007, which means I’ve been blogging for 16 years in December. It’s been 13 years! 13 years since I started to blog. Sure some years it has been low frequency but still. I have never had any other objective…
It’s over
Officially it ended Friday, this is just a regular week-end. I have not been able to just sit down and relax all four weeks, but at the same time when the Mr is off I want to do things together with him, even if it’s only sitting next to each-other. Tomorrow the Mr starts working…
Vacation time
We are at the time of year when Swedes go on their holiday or vacation as Americans’ say. According to the newspaper Dagens Industri the most popular weeks for holiday leave are the weeks 29, 30 and 31, which this year corresponds to the period 17 July – 6 August. This probably because July and…
Listen very carefully…
… I shall only say this once. Getting up early in the morning, I mean SUPER early (05.15 am) to be at the gym to be ready with your workout before 7.00 am, is the best thing ever. It IS! I promise you it is. After being away for a week not doing much of…
The essence of Swedishness 🇸🇪
Today is the national day of Sweden. Hurra! 🇸🇪 It’s pretty new as an official holiday. Apparently it was the founder of Nordiska museet, Artur Hazelius, who 1893 started to celebrate the day by arranging a spring party at Skansen in memory of the election of Gustaf Vasa as King of Sweden in 1523 and…
My coaching journey
I still have one more session left with my coach after the summer, but as I feel that I have “already” figured out my thing, I will share my latest coaching journey with you guys. And even if I already have shared some of my process in nine (!) real time blog posts I will…
Louise Dock 