Life reminding itself

You need them. Once in a while you need that inexorably punch in your stomach. A punch that shakes you to your core. A blow that makes an average Friday night important and reminds you that all your days are the most important you have. Because they are your life. I was aimlessly scrolling my…

Time for someone else

The Mr and I caught up time with a “date night”. Football was on the agenda. The Mr is, as you are well aware of, assistant coach for Halmstad bollklubbs (HBK) boys aged 16 and have season tickets. We took the train (so strange, but good for us to skip the car) and then I…

Paris report – Day#3

We are our way to the airport- hopefully they – the French – wait until tomorrow to go out on strike. Our last day was just as good a the two previous. With 16000 steps and with a lot of help from the metro we manage to cover the both parts of Paris we already…

Paris report – Day #2

Today we went in the opposite direction – towards Champs-Élysées. The mission was the same. Find a good deal. If the findings were, I’m not the one to tell. But I understood that the PSG jersey was. Even-though it is last season’s model (and most possibly therefore it was a bargain). I feel unbelievable blessed…

Paris report – Day #1

I must say Fabian is somewhat modest when his uses the word “good” in his review of the day. At one time he was saying that his mind was spinning of the huge supply especially as it’s combined with a sale to up to 50%! We stated our day at Galeries Lafayette Haussmann. From there…

We ❤️ Paris

Late yesterday evening, with the help of an ex football pro who played with Kevin De Bruyne in Genk we arrived to the wonderful hotel Belleval. Today we are excitingly scouting for all the bargains on our way to Mona Lisa.

Mamma Mia

What a week we have had. The Mr and I who on Tuesday last week took a well deserved “post graduation”break and went to Skiathos, Greece for a week. I will tell you more in another post. But of my three trips to Greece, this was the best. Maybe it was the company, the food…

And the little one ❤️

Last day in junior high for this lad. I just can’t believe what time has done. I know I sound like a broken record but I just don’t. I’m so proud of both my boys.

Graduation

So, it’s done. Graduation. We got to have a wonderful day for our Sam. Thanks to all our friends and family. Now high schools over and now he only needs to study if he wants to. Monday – work starts – an assistant nurse ready to care for you. His mum’s going to rest her…

Check ✅

An immense milestone was reach yesterday for our first born. Driving license. Oh they joy. It has been a somewhat struggle, but he kept the spirit, with strong support from his partens (primarily his mother I’d say). For me as a parent it’s paradox feeling. Happy for his success but also worried for the fact…

L.❤️.V.E

Sometimes it’s simple. Love. It’s just like this.

Fantastic parents

Sam wasn’t selected to make the military service. Due to lactose intolerance… We were all kind of surprised about this, especially that it wasn’t sorted before the physical visit. We were thinking that he might get removed by his hearing, but he never came that far. But no sad faces on any of us. And…

Love them so much

I have had dogs now for 20 years. But I’m still fascinated by them and the fact how much I love them. They are amazing. Especially ours. ❤️

Sam our man ❤️

He had us waiting. Not for long, but we first had some else cooking for May 2003, but “thankfully” that unborn was lost. But then he came. He was planned for 2 January 2004, but thanks to being a breech baby, we got a planned c-section and then – to meet my wish of not…

Growing

Our Tesla is growing. Getting to know a new character is exciting. So far we noticed that Tesla is bright (fast learner as some would say and that includes not so positive things), independent, lover of balls, extremely fond of all strangers as well as family members. When she sees someone, not only her tail…

Progress

Tomorrow we return to work – yikes! How will I, who work from home, manage… What is working is the relationship between Tesla and Buddy Boy. This is probably what I’ve worried most about. Also in general everything is progressing. Tonight we slept from 11.00 pm till 5.40. No nightly calls for the bathroom.

Sittning here

Here I am, sitting and feeling ridiculously blessed. Blessed for all the birthday wishes sent to me. Especially of the friends taking 5 (!) minutes of their time and giving me a phone call ❤️. But especially for my precious PRECIOUS family. The wonderful husband and two equally magical sons. Picking out personal gifts hitting…

Sit down in the boat

Sometimes the only thing one needs to do, is nothing and things will just solve themselves. Yesterday I had my first day back in (home) office. Wednesday I spent in bed. With a sore throat and generally feeling blah. While doing so, Christmas danced out as we spoke about the other day. Apparently my tinsel…

The note

Found this, and lots of other memorabilia, in a bag my parents had saved. The note with number and address the Mr gave me when we first met 25 years ago. Blessed to have found him and to continue loving him. I don’t know if it was a blessing or not that I didn’t realize…

Friendship annus 1990

I met this lovely woman back in 1990, when the future held dreams about mansions, top positions as LA law firms and hunky pool boys in Beverly Hills. At age 16, I found my squire. She's mine, as I am hers. We stood by each other through heart aces and gutter vomits. She was never…

Vacay – no 2

After returning from Österlen, but before celebrating F’s 11 birthday, I stoped by at home, re packed and went off to a short overnight trip with “the women”. A constellation of women where I feel very welcomed but also a little as the least sharpest tool in the shed. I know that this feeling is…

Nostalgia strikes a cord

Two more gifts to wrap. Then we are done. Tomorrow we have a teenager in the house, but something says he moved in this summer. Our tall, smart, kind, loud, emotional boy turns 13 tomorrow and I am just about to send his father a link to film I made with old and new photos…

The WAG

I don’t know if he is mentioned here very often. Maybe more in a subordinate clause. Usually I would say, “like in IRL“. But this is not the time to be joking. Because he is, as far from a joke anyone could come. He has now been asked (and accepted) to be the head coach for…

What a way to start your day

This morning I was love bombed. What a best way to start your day. Two friends, independently of one another, “Instagramed” and Facedbooked the nicest things about me. And just because I am who I am. One can’t have a bad day after that. Thanks to them for sharing and thanks to me for being me. View…

Memories & good choices

This little fellow showed up in my Facebook memories. 5 years ago. Oh, I cherish the fact that I worked 80% and gave a full Friday for 5 years or so to my princes. Fabian and I had a tradition of a weekly fika at a café of our choice. A 30 min or so only for…

Exception from the rule

One can always change one’s mind. Like agree to take some wedding pics even you have promised never to do so. A little sister of my oldest friends asked if I could shoot their wedding. Mid-day  on a sunny summer’s Sunday overlooking the ocean. No shade, no clouds. Not my favorite setting when it comes to…

Love

Some days I do think that: 1) I’d be better off without him (reasons can vary from forgetting to put away all the dirty dishes, plain stupidity to spending too much time at one or another soccer pitch) or 2) Life is really unfair that it didn’t let me bump in to Olof Mellberg back…

Love

In the processes of moving you find stuff. Stuff you didn’t know you had, but when finding them you are very happy that you did. Like this one. Mum, dad and Sam at his second birthday. Love is everywhere.

Three years ago

Today we had breakfast at Appelbee’s (Fabian consuming a mountain of pancakes) and afterwards turning to the Top of the Rock, tying the knot and becoming Mr & Mrs Dock. I remember the day as it was yesterday, partly because photographer Pontus Höök documented it all. We’ve been together since 1993. Loving, laughing and at…

Tik tok

On Thursday he turns 9. 9? 9! I realize that it doesn’t matter where the time go. The important thing is what we do with it.

To Russia with love

As Pride is going on in Russia at the moment, let’s listen to this tune made by my former colleague. To Russia, and anyone else who has “a problem” with same sex relations.

Freckles and giggles

The spring sun has left traces on your nose and your voice, when asking if you can go with a friend home after school, is so full of giggles it all needs to come out. Thank you for being you. My love for you and your brother meets no end.

The constant repetition

The words comes constantly. Every morning. Every night. And usually somewhere in-between. The words words are: “I love you”. For me it is important to tell and show my kids they are the most important in my life. That I will always will be there for them. That they can count on me.

All my boys

I am one of them who strongly misbelieve the ones who, in their social media status, constantly tell how fantastic their partners and/or children are. We all know they might be and most likely are asses (or something similar) more often than they are perfect. Never the less I realize i am one of them….

London baby

We, of a certain age, know the expression “London Baby”. The Dock family just returned from a longer week-end in this fab city. Love the Brittish. Their correctness and politness. Just love it. Love it. And the architecture! Could just walk around the city watching it. I will not suger-coat it. There was some moaning,…

Family

Really, no more words are needed (and if someone wonders, the elderly peeps are my parents).  

Sons

Really, there are no words needed.

It all ended well

Many people misunderstand my strive for happiness as me needing to be happy all the time – H.E.L.L N.O. I am probably the best (meaning highest) combo of all feelings. Sad, angry, happy, etc. etc. Today we (OK I) took a turn to the angry zone. Me and Sam had the worst quarrel since… I…

A little wish

While I was dying of my minor ebola case last Friday night. I heard both the Mr and our oldest feeling for me. I woke up every 30 minutes to rejoin the bathroom. And all Saturday I tried to catch up the lost sleep of the night before and getting my body back to status…

Noooooooooo

Not a good sign. We are getting sloppy. Not regarding the cleaning, we have been sloppy about that for years. Our anniversary! How could we miss it?! More staggeringly, how could I miss it?! Last Wednesday, 21 years and not a card, no anniversary wishes. Probaby a kiss or two and a squeeze on the…

To change or not

“It is not the strongest or the most intelligent who will survive but those who can best manage change.”  ― Charles Darwin I read his quote on a restroom wall in Lisbon, Portugal once and since then it really stuck to me. In my strive for personal happiness I live by it (even if I, at times, am…

This thing called parenting

It is not easy to be a parent. Just as little easy it is to be a kid with parents. During my 11 years of motherhood I have developed and improved my ways. From a totalitarian to more a more coaching approach. And I do find it more intressant, more rewarding yes, better with my “new”…

Every other

Nowadays the Mr’s and my lives are really overlapping. When I am at home, he is away and vice versa. When I fall a sleep on the couch he is awake and vice versa. The evil cause is soccer. And shift work. And starting your own business. I say it is temporarily. It better be….

Fathers and dads

Saturday, a second cousin to my children made a speech to her father turning 50. She’d realized that many her friends were quite angry with their fathers as they had never been part their life. She had the best dad and she celebrated him for being that. I also have the best dad, a man…

Trust

Trust is the ultimate sign of love. I am thankful that I am trusted.

He had me at “hello”

A while back I read Zlatan Ibrahimovic‘s autobiography (written together with author David Lagercrantz) and I enjoyed it. Maybe I didn’t think it was the most well written, but I still enjoyed it. What really captured me, and what made me determined to always respect one of the world’s most talented soccer players, was his…

All these ladies

Yesterday I stayed up till 03.30 am (we are actually talking about this morning). That it self in an accomplishment. Not frequently occurring. Before that I ate (different oriental dishes) , I drank (wine and water), I danced, I laughed, I cried and I celebrated (the victory of my team’s music quiz especially). This I…

Kisses

“U cant kiss too much”. My husband’s words when I was abour to leave this morning. And we kissed. Again.

Men

Today, it is father’s day in Sweden. I do not support commercial happenings. I love my father, mother, children and other dear ones everyday and not because the retailing industry tells me to. But I do not dislike the fact that we should appreciate one another, I just hope we do it more than once…

Happy, HAPPY anniversary

Time? It is a strange phoneme. You can not touch it, but you know it is there through memories, pictures and feelings. Today, one year ago, on top of NYC we said, what we decades before already had decided, to stick through thick and thin and to the ones we are. As individuals, as a…