Two brothers constantly fighting. One worse than the other. The mr is off to work. Suicide feels like the only option at the moment.
Category: Life in general
Sorry
Apparently I have done it again. Written so secretive (or poorly) so people have misunderstood my frevious post. I AM NOT PREGNANT! I meant, IF (or when I was) I didn’t drink and I didn’t stay up till 4:00 am. Now, I am not and thenI do those crazy things.
Tired
One good, or even great thing to be pregnant or breastfeed, is, that you do not drink. Good company, lots of wine and an afterpart(!) turned the clock into close to 4:00 am before we managed to get to bed. This had the consequence that the Sunday was spent doing nothing. But it rained more…
Good help
It is good when they get older. They can help out with things. Like getting a Pokemon off the roof.
Just not cut for it
I am not made for parenting. At least not the points that have to do pain. Their pain. But since I am not a curling mum, I must let them meet unfomfortable things to. I must.
Eyes wide open
Just watched “A mother’s courage: Talking back to autism“. A great documentary about what autism really is. Besides the obvious, to be reminded of the fact that we all should be happy for what we’ve got, especially if health (whatever that means) is one factor. It was also a great eye-opener of how increadible narrow-minded…
Circus
Been to the circus today. My kids first (!) time (yepp, I know terrible mother). I think it is due to my own memory of it, we never gone. Remembered (I think this actually is my first memory ever) being about six years old and looking forward to the circus visit. Especially looking forward to…
Progress
At the garden work goes forward. Much thanks to the Mr. Love him especially much for that.
Bad things
When things are tough, I remind myself that they always could get worse.
Dust
Why is it so that it only in my (OK ours) house it is dusty. Have I stept on the evil dust queens toes, so she sneaks in here every night and pours her disgusting dust bag all over the place? I am just wondering?
Garden work
Today the Mr and I have worked hard in the garden. We decided to make beds for our strawberries, rubarbs and spieces. Our hope is this is the end for all weeds… As we removed cobble stone from the house (apparently not right for ours…) we are reusing it in true sustainibility spirit around our…
Welcome into my home
Got stuck in front of the computer (just before going to bed… why does it always happen) and for some reason I started to search for pictures of our kitchen. When we moved in we did a made a budget renovation of the kitchen. We fixed the cabinet doors, changed the counter top and sink….
Being part of
I and a friend/business partner of mine just got the news that we have been an active part of helping someone reach her dream. That feels amazing!
Oh, do I have a blog?
So sorry, the fact that I have a blog seemed to have totally passed the working part of my brain. Will do better. I promise.
Not compare
Must remind myself “not compate only be inspired”. Not compare, not compare, NOT COMPARE!!!! Only be inspired…
Tribute
As a libra I need balance. So to talk in the other direction of last posts I must say “thanks God” to those parents who do set boundaries, who do take the fight and discussion with their 9 year old. Who realize that loving your kids, does also include that they are not perfect and…
Disappointed
Life really disappoints me at the moment. It is hard to stay happy, strong and care free when tough things happens to your children. It is especially hard when you have done all you can and it is still up to others. And remebering my previous post, there is very little hope.
For crying out loud
I am amazed (and not in a good way) over today’s parents total lameness (yes, this is a word, from now on if nothing else). How is it possible that our generation consists of this universe’s worst leaders? Of people that can’t decide over their children. That can’t understand that it is primarely you, as…
Miserable
Soar throat… Yes, why not get ill now…
Remember
Before you start complaining or blaming your parents or society in general, rememember that YOU always have a choice. It is really just how much you dare to stand up for yourself and your opinions.
19 hrs friends
The heading could trick you in to think that I am about to talk about short encounters, not going as expected. But it is really quite the opposite. Apparently this post covers all (most) my topics. And that is what happens when you bring old friends together. Meeting them, even if it was 15 years…
Thoughts
There are so many feelings and emotions in me at the moment. I hope that the week-end get away with friends will help me ventilate and clear some of them out.
Mad men
No, I am not referring to the men around me (professional or privately). When will the next season be aired? Will it be aired? I have a need for Don Draper. After a fast browse, apparently/hopefully it will air on Swedish TV this spring. Yeah!
I just became a better person
Once this summer I overheard a sons conversation to his mother about what my oldest just had done. It was not so much what the boy said as what his mother said, that caught my attention and finally got me to understand what parenting coaches have meant what we need to do to not only…
Junior
Two weekends ago Fabian had his first soccer tournament. They ended 4 out of 5… but they had fun and I am one of them cheering parents, who once in a while remember to cheer for the opponents to. The very non- swedish cheering from myself and the other parents of our team was however…
Balance
To balance my last post, I want to make a smart remark: I just want to clarify that I disslike (not hate, a word that is widely missused today) stupid people. A lot.
Once again
Last week I was abruptly reminded about the evil world we live in. How important it is for me to do good and be good. To never do evil things. Especially not to children.
Re-charging
What a wonderful way to re-charge one’s batteries. Cleaning and editing pics. Since we returned from vacation I (and a lot others to) have worked constantly. Full days (and a little more) in the office. After dinner and sometimes leaving the bed-time chores to the Mr. I have been working until 10, 11, 12, 01…
Butterflies
One day to go! Then we have reached the point of no return. And that is soooo liberating. It means that whatever u have forgotten, it is too late and u just have to deal with it. On Friday appoximatly 370 store managers and a handful or two other important (and less important) people will…
Still working
Just after midnight my laptop was closed down. I think I’ll sleep in and not be in the office BEFORE 08.30 later today. 4 more day left… What do I expect… I’ll tell you later…
Swedish mountains
We are back after one week in the Swedish mountains. Together with 10 (!) others we spent some relaxing (long johns all day and no hairdryer) and fun days (very few nights for me, at 9 pm I was out). I saw my purpose to tag with Fabian. Last year was not a great ski…
Hat off
My and the Mr just finished watching the excellent documentary “The Interrupters“. Following three violence interrupters on the streets of Chicago. I love watching documentaries with the Mr since we always meet in the dicussion of the topic. And it is good to do that – discuss. Brings us closer. Thereto as a mother, I…
Revelation
If you know me, you know that I am an honest person. Sometimes just a little bit naive and too honest for my own good. I strongly dislike lies and especially liars. I have become better over the years. Not better in telling lies, but better in choosing what truths to tell. However, today I…
Running
I have started again. To run. As I am participating in a half marathon this spring, it is about time to get going. On the other hand, I can’t complain when I have the oppertunity to do it in this nature. And of course it is extra fun with a jogging partner 🙂
Crazy
After a day like this, which included telling people off (well, not really, but being very clear in my expectations to things that one cell organisms could have figured out), getting into the details of what needs to be done to host 1300 people over 5 days (I know that the project leaders for the…
Me and the ability to do nothing
I am truly blessed. Truly blessed with the ability to do nothing. Nothing at all. I actually feel sorry for the buzzy people. For the people who are proud of the fact that they can’t relax, that they always (must) do something. I just realized I described my father, or at least how he used…
God jul
Just want to wish all of you a really Merry Christmas. Think about what Christmas is all about and remind your children about it, if they forget it when their gift is not what they expected…
Christmas celebration continues
Me and the Mr decided, long before we had children, to let Christmas Eve (the culmination of Christmas in Swedish households) be holy and free from stress. This meant that we would NOT go from parents to parents, divorced or not, as a rockband on tour. Christmas Eve would be spent at home in our…
Enjoy
Today I chose to enjoy the result of my acts. I have decided and created on some good choices and I congratulate myself for it. What good did you do today? (No, there is no irony in that statement… 😉
Christmas tree
Here it is. Our Christmas tree for this year. I think that it accidently got the same colours as last year (what ever that means). As always, when it comes to Christmas tree decoration, more is better! Which can, to some extent, hide the VERY wired shape it has. I wonder what we were thinking…
3 years ago
Three years ago I blogged about my kids – surprise! In 2009 I proudly talked about my gingerbread fort and other X-mas preparations. And last year I said yes to letting Samuel play hockey (that luckily never became reality) and reported from the Lucia celebration at school. The same procedure as today in other words. To…
Merry Christmas
Our traditional Christmas cards should have arrived to its different receivers. To not neglect anyone I send our Christmas greetings through the digital world as well. Merry Christmas and a Happy 2012.
Some of my favourites
Some of my favourites. Kiddos (of course), dogs and the fire place. The fire place is also the dogs favourite during winter.
I wish
That all people would take (at least) half a year to get to know one self. So people could make their choices and stand comfortably by them without asking for someoneelses (my) confirmation. If you have done something for reasons that you believed was the right thing to do – then it WAS the right…
Fabulous Fabian
Went through some “old”pictures. What a tragedy that I do not shoot more for personal purposes. I really need to start doing it again. Found this of our little one. The natural entertainer, although soooo shy, but he loves to be in the lime-light (like his mother excl. the shyness). And he loves to fika,…
Louise Dock 