Sometimes, when I’m tired, stressed or whatever and the kids are (naturally from a distance) seeking my attention (in 90% my, not the Mr’s). I collect myself by taking a deep breath to surpress any form of annoyance in my voice. I do this, because I don’t want my kids to experience themselves as a…
Omg
Once in a while, it hits me. Like a barrell of bricks. How they grow. I just looked at our youngest and got stunned how tall he is. Today, for a split second, I wondered why the oldest had the 6:th grader’s schedule with him home.
Thank God!
Last week was my first full week back to work after the Swedish “mandatory” four weeks of summer vacation. It was tough. Our late nights, late mornings made it almost impossible for me to keep my eyes open when arriving at my desk. Even if my last weeks at home wasn’t conflict free (me and…
We’re building a home
For those of you who like to practise your Swedish or feel confident that Google translate will be able to make sense of it, visit my new blog: http://www.attbyggaetthem.wordpress.com to follow our journey to move to a new place and build our new home. Welcome!
Mini week-end
We went to Gothenburg on a mini week-end with a hotel stay and with our goal set on the amusement park Liseberg. For the first time I didn’t go on any rides. Last year’s encounter with the ride Helix, made me take the decision. Maybe for life. (I love rides for the ride, but my balance…
A blue day
Today, due to technical issues, I couldn’t work. It became a blue day, in the best way. I went with my boys to Hallandsväderö, a small island and nature reserve. We walked the trails, found piece of the island where only we were and all we did was just being there, together. It was a…
To be loved
It is a blessing to be loved. I just finished a short phone-call with my mother and I just realized what a blessing it is to have parents who loves you.
The wonderful task of doing absolutely nothing
I am doer. I dream and plan things and then I do them. And one thing I do best is nothing. I do not have a problem to spend a day or two doing absolutely nothing. Yesterday was one of those days and I think this one will be the same.
Where will it end?
Some days I think it is set. There will be no worries. Our kids will be just fine. And other days, I think that there is no way they will manage without the assistance of a trustee (and not only for the financial matters of things, but that for sure to…). I take a breath…
Busy bee
So much going on in my head at the moment. A little work a lot of life. Once I know where I land, I will share it with you. PS. Barefoot rose and salt & vineager chips (crisps) are the best. Especially combined.
A day in the sun
If the summer would getting grades, it would fail miserably this year. Until today (or two days prior if we are to be precize). We, however, haven’t gotten the chance to enjoy it, until today. The was spent with friends. First at the local pool and the kids were more in the pool than out…
Soccer & The Minions
Nine years ago I was in this very minute in labour. I wonder if it was now I, somewhat angry, said I didn’t care anymore. That I was about to go home. It was a great labour. Where I decided to work with my body. After 3,5 hrs at the hospital he was out. Our second star….
Tik tok
On Thursday he turns 9. 9? 9! I realize that it doesn’t matter where the time go. The important thing is what we do with it.
When time is not enough
Sometimes time can never be enough. Like when you meet a friend and you have so much to talk about. And you realize that it wouldn’t matter if you had more time. It simply wouldn’t be enough to empty the things that need to be ventilated. All the things from kids, friendship to career. Or…
Redundant
I remember the times when all I asked for was 10 minutes by myself. Preferably doing something fun and semi-rewarding but I’d settle for alone-time in the bathroom. But not even that was possible. I also remembered the time when both of the kids where off on playdates and I got so much free time…
You only live once right?
Today I did something crazy, something out of the blue, probably won’t happen and in total contradiction to one of my latest posts. It is a little bit like, be careful for what you wish for, you might just get it! Happy Midsummer all.
Today was the day
When F really understood soccer and how you play it. He and his team had a plan, made the shots from defens, to middle field and F scored. Looking forward to the VIP launch at Old Trafford and/or Camp Nou.
Summer is here
The Swedish of all Swedish things. Probably more Swedish than Midsummer is end of term (skolavslutning). I don’t think I am more proud to be Swedish than at this specific time. New for this year is that our school had the ceremony on the evening rather than the morning. It was perfect. The sun came…
The question
The most common question I get nowadays is if I like being “on my own” aka self-employed. And the answer to it is yes. Yes, and nothing but yes, at least for now. I have during my 1.5 years as self-employed noticed a change in behaviour when you move from role to a needed skill. When you…
Our youngest
My boys, my pride. Fabian our youngest is developing both on and off the the pitch and it has become so clear to me, just the last year, that he to is not only little bro. He is a boy with his own interests, ways and dreams. And I love to follow all of them.
One of the good ones
A weekend with the family. Graduation, exercise (track and football) and Sunday luxury. All together with the ones most important to me.
Life soundtracks
I’m the kind if person who get very strong affirmation by music. I have a couple of life soundtracks that help me steer me towards my future. Right now I play this song on repeat on Spotify. It makes me feel good, it makes me feel “the best”.
Another mother’s day
Very few have missed that my sons are my everything. The inspire me. They make me laugh and they are one of the reasons why I am happy. To share their successes and adversities creates an additional dimension of life. One that is not even possible to compare to anything else. Last night Sam was…
Mother’s day
The scent of the Lillies of the valley standing on the kitchen table reach my anosmia and reminds me that they summer together with the last day of school IS here (even if the whether tells me differently). Yesterday (Swedish Mother’s day) was spent at my childhood home (most probably for the last time) as my…
To Russia with love
As Pride is going on in Russia at the moment, let’s listen to this tune made by my former colleague. To Russia, and anyone else who has “a problem” with same sex relations.
Naturally beautiful
I have not always appreciated nature. By all means, nature has always been close to me or vice versa and I have always been part of it. But have I appreciated it? It might be so that as it has been such a natural part of my life I have taken it for granted. As a photographer…
What to do
Somtimes I just want to hug my children and tell them that everything is going to be all right. So that is exactly what I do. #theonlywayicanbeaparent
Control
Yes, a little control freak lives inside me. It loves when things are under control. Like now. Fantastic feeling.
Comparing sex with tea
My husband showed me this one the other day. I think it is brilliant. Tea and Consent from Blue Seat Studios on Vimeo.
Leadership
I got the best grade from our 12-year old the other day. We were to mention three characteristics about each-other. He said (about me): Happy, loves her family (can be an adjective in Swedish) and… proper. Happy, yes that’s what everybody says, no surprise there. Proper, apparently I’m fooling someone ;). But “loves her family” – dang. Straight…
The worrying kind
I have learnt that worrying is useless waste of energy. The only benefit one will gain from worrying, is the possibility for the worrier to say: “I told you so”. Which often by nature, as it is connected to worries, is gloom and doom. And therefore I keep my worrying to a minimum. But at the…
Nature and memories
I had to go back to my parents for another round of cleaning out of old stuff (so much crap one saves…). Instead of keeping it all I chose to take som pics. Driving to my parents I also got flabbergasted over nature’s brilliance. To be honest I must have grown up at one of…
Greatful
I don’t think there is anything greater than being greatful. The sense when you are truly thankful for not only what life has given you, but also who you handled it. For let’s be honest. I don’t think there is anyone going through life with no cares or bothers in the world. We all have…
Photography
Photography does wonders for my soul. I forget everything when I take pics. And how I love to use nature for my palette. Wonder why I do not do it more often. On my second instagram account, @signed_louise I focus more on photography as a creative expression and not so mucg as a visionary diary. There…
Finally
My Instagram feed is back in my sidebar. Thanks God! Wanna follow? Add @louisedock on Instagram
This spring’s favourite
This is what I play over and over again in the car going to my customers. The longer commute the better.
Caught
It’s amazing how two individuals with the same pre-conditions react totally different when being caught doing things they know the shouldn’t do. One lies through his teeth and wouldn’t cave for torture maffia style. While the other admits before charged and throws himself to the ground asking for mercy on his soul.
Heritage, environment or jante at its best?
Reunions, what a strange arrangement. What a great arrangement. Last Saturday, 50% of all the students from the three graduating classes from Ljungbyheds junior high 1990, returned to a building where school dances were held 25-years ago. Did we time warp and become as we once were. Naturally, I can only speak for myself, but some extent yes. But only because…
Freckles and giggles
The spring sun has left traces on your nose and your voice, when asking if you can go with a friend home after school, is so full of giggles it all needs to come out. Thank you for being you. My love for you and your brother meets no end.
Trying to convince myself
I know that the best thing I can do is to just go with it, there is not much/anything I can do. And that is killing me right now. To know what I want, to have it at an arms length, but still way out of reach and foremost out of my control. Trying to…
Wannabes who don’t wannado
Are you one of those who like to be seen and heard but not really accomplish so much? I Sweden we name this (in a straight forward translation) “a lot of talking but very little mechanics”…? Then you and I are most probably not compatible. I love visionary people and it is more than OK to not do…
Call me a bought crybaby, I do not care
I know this is content for Pandora jewelry. And I do exactly what they want me to do with it – share it. And I don’t ever care much for gems. I cried before the first frame was done showing. Kids, there aint nothing better.
Sun
I love the sun. It doesn’t need to be ridiculously warm, but sun helps. Today is such a day. Time to enjoy it, with a cup of coffee. Ahhhh.
An ordinary life
I belong to what people would call “the commoners”. I am not famous (not notorious either for that matter). I don’t have famous friends. I don’t have loads of money that can take me all the places I want to go (this I would like to have, not so much the money as being able to…
How hard can it be?!
Our sons are of average intelligence, maybe even above. We never had anything to worried about, that’s what we’ve been told at every parent/teacher meeting since kindergarten. Can anyone then enlighten me why it is so hard for boys to lift the ring up when using the toilette? What extra class do they need to…
So damn proud
I am so damn proud over both my sons. They are spectacular even if not flawless. Anyhow, yesterday I needed moral support to get my butt out running. I asked for support and after some persuasion I got Sam to join me. So we ran, together in the spring sun. Sam running, talking. Me running,…
I’m a planner
I get happy when I plan stuff. Probably makes me a person of control. I get really excited and happy when I plan stuff around food. Not because I love it so much, more the opposite. I hate cooking and have realized that with some good planning the process goes so much smoother. So, now I have…
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